Thursday, August 20, 2009 10:25 PM
Everyday in school became Hell now , previously it felt like heaven on Earth . Now , Hell on Earth , it's okay , i'll try to keep up with the solo-ness .
Simply said , i hate my life , but love the loved ones in it . Avoiding people every
single day , i wished they won't even know me in the first place .
Perhaps the emo-ness feeling is still in me . Tried to control myself when
a person disturbs me . Having more friends only troubles me , make me
stressed up with their bitchy gossips . My blog , my post , my say .
Those sadness are still in me , every night i cried till i fell asleep . I would
love to be asleep , because illusions are better than life , illusions smiles me .
Peeps should know i'm not into straight-forward , kinda thang . Leave me
alone if your not even sincere by heart . Life sucks , my love-life is better .
The only person i have now , is myself . I always share my happiness but
not really on my fwcking sufferments . Back ups , no need uh . Stand alone
is enough , because nobody is sharing my life . I have one heart , one life .
My life isn't like a game with cheatcodes , it's like living in an invincible
jar where nobody can see me keeping those cries . I hate to wait , especially
when the person is already nearby and not meeting me and delaying
the time , sometimes i felt like i wanna text you that i'm going home after
hours of waiting baby . I cried everytime i wait , my heart always aches
each time i tried not to cry in public . I cried in class just now , thank
god nobody saw , cos my class was watching the whatever CD thingy ..
Music shows my feelings , drawings shows what i was thinking of , poetry
is my speech , photography is what i need for drawings :
Everyday live my life with blur sight , lost my spectacles , scared to even
go home alone . Everything happend so fast . My fantastic rainbow-ed life ,
sucks alot ! THANKS ALOT UH !