Let's just make this simple.
I'm having a relationship with Aliff Bin Raffi Faizal Bin Omar
'She didn't just kissed, she claimed ownership. Took his mouth with urgency,
as if her life depended on her kissing him.' You know how is it when you love
someone? And the hard part, the bad part, the Jerry Springer Show part is
that you never stop loving someone. There’s always a piece of them in your heart.
Were you so afraid of losing something you love, that you refuse to love anything?
Sometimes I'd be glad if only you'd fought for me.
She fell, she hurt, she felt. She lived. And for all the tumble of her experiences,
she still had hope. Maybe this next time would do the trick. Or maybe not. But
unless you stepped into the game, you would never know. When we were children,
we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable.
But to grow up is to accept vulnerability. To be alive is to be vulnerable. My HomepageTaggedTumblrTwitter
Know that the pain will pass and when it passes ,
you will become stronger , happier , more sensitive and aware .
DID attend school today [: but , me and syafiqah lepak one corner and didnt attend the concert . After school , we went to opposite our school there , lepak jap then , went to school bustop and saw Zhofir :D OHMYGAWD . He super tall sakk , still i like him , ABIT . Kaw jgn bilang saper2 pat school kaykaykay (: gegerl good kan ? mataer setan :D Went to commenwealth , Syafiqah's house , took my charger , and called Rhonda if she's coming to primary school . She said 4 or 5 plus call her back , i called her at 5 .. She said she cant go , got locked in the house , & she doesnt have the key . Played computer awhile at Syafiqah's house , and she go mandi .. Then , i went home (: *ERHEM* bulan puase dokk ~ hahahah :D
Currently listening to :LMFAO - LaLaLa .
Sunday, August 30, 2009 9:06 PM
Went to Geylang again . We buker puase pat umah , makanan packet . Still hadn't got a wink of sleep since yesterday |: tomorrow's school . Sign in at 9 am , out by 11 am :D heeeh [!] While at Geylang , received a private call from Baby . Me act as if tak kenal same dier uhk , then he say i tak layan message dier luh , aper larhs .. So i told him uh that i busy and my phone was like silent and in bag . Then he merajok |: said 'iloveyou' to me , and i replied 'ihateyoutoo'and he hung up the call . He very fast merajok eh .. Hahaha :D
My mum got the Omnia 2 from my daddy D: i wanna it ~ the camera's god-darn-great .i want the phone [!] If i cant get the Omnia 2 , then i want 5730 Xpressmuxic [!] i'm still not over it aites (: heehehe .. Maybe lepak-ing with peepx tmr , so .. hope gerl bleh lepak uh tmr k? Loveloves ~
Currently listening to :Little Boots - Remedy .
Havent got a wink of sleep . Didnt have the time to update yesterday so , here ( : Woke up yesterday , had my bath . Went to Geylang Joo Chiat Complex with mum and dad . Tak sempat for proper buke , so i had cookie and coke in the car when dah buke . Bought rantai ( : Went to look around Joo Chiat for baju raye . Then had dinner at Changi , went back home . One whole day never touch laptop O: ohmyallah . Around 2 plus in the morning , webcamed with Phoebe Goh , my classmate . Then she went offline , then i adjusted my blog for photos . Bloghop and found Elfy's blog . Hahahah :D Didnt text Baby much , because my credit's going low . Updated my Tagged as well . Read SyaRoc's blog too , `Babe , rilek kays . Dont stress yourself so much uh kay (: Patience lead to positive thinking !' I miss Baby so much |: Heard he was working at woodlands there ? Mover . I hope he can keep the work for long . Been broke these days . Havent topup my ez-link since the RunAway . Baby , wo ai ni ! 7 months and 5 days and still counting sayang ~ .. Miss the 'lepak-ed people too' babe , hope y'know who are they :D Hahahah ! I even miss my long lost boyf , i mean , 'EX-boyf' daffy (: you're featured as my love , but not , really as my love , as in , love -.- nehmind ! y'should know what i mean . tooteex !~
Currently listening to :Eddy Wata - I love my people .
Saturday, August 29, 2009 2:52 AM
Had a chat with my long lost boyf :D We didnt break , we lost contact a few years ago . I'm not quite sure how we got in touch again .. Jyeah , he said he regretted this and that , and i felt like it too . Hahaah , how we actually met , was a funny part , cant forget it . Was i primary 4 or 5 ? .. I forgot .. Damn , i gotta make a fan club for myself :D After chatting with Daffy , he went off . Then this guy came on :
ϟ мαяуαηα says: :)
• мΓ dεgılεΓς◦says: errh eu
ϟ мαяуαηα says: yes ?
• мΓ dεgılεΓς◦says: errh can i sae sumthng?
ϟ мαяуαηα says: yea sure .. what is it ?
• мΓ dεgılεΓς◦says: i syngkan eu?
ϟ мαяуαηα says: why is that so ? i mean , like , what have i dah buat to you yg you syngkn i lak ?
• мΓ dεgılεΓς◦says: euu. actually da lamer i pendamkan perasaan nik. tapi, skrng baru larh i raser masernyer untok i bilang eu hmm. i knoe ure attachd. im sorie.
ϟ мαяуαηα says: im sorry too .. but , urgh .. nehminds .. at least we can be kawanx ? kan ?..
• мΓ dεgılεΓς◦says: haix enth larh. nehmind den. _________
Love is killing me bit by bit . I'm try'na love only one . I'm trying not to be greedy . I'm trying to not hurt their feelings . But , thanks for the confession thou [: You do had the courage to . hahaha .. My kakak and Sya are having problem maseng-maseng :D Dont let love control your mind Gegerl (:
Thursday, August 27, 2009 7:29 PM
Watching TV now , thefairlyoddparents (: spongebobsquarepants & thefairlyoddparents , my favourite cartoon :D Got home early today . Jumper Ayu after school at bukitmerah , hugged him super tight when i met with him , pa , ma rindu papa so much , though we've been meeting each other often recently (: Papa & mama 7 months and 2 days :D Papa , mama love you so much . Ups and downs , we've been going through . Love love love love ! no other words can describe how much i do love you . Though i may have let my heart fell for another , no matter what , nothing will and would ever change me love towards you baby . Mwarkxs ^-^
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 8:42 PM
After school , met up with Syafiqah at our normal meeting place , which is 'between' hers and my classroom . Went to opposite school with Heidi , Alin & Syafiqah . Passed by 7-11 , & ohmygawd , can't tahan dengan the sluuuuuurpee D: So , went inside , grab the slurpee , and as per normal uh , must get something for free dokk [!] :D got sandwich and the pizza thingy , heat it up , letak dalam bag , sempat sial . Hahahha :D So , bayar for the slurpee (: then , Alin and Heidi went home . Syafiqah ngan me went to lepak awhile . Went to blk 36 , texted Wan , blablablax , he asked where kitorg lepak , aku reply alek , pat dover blk 36 , then he never reply , dalam satu jam baru dier reply , chickentot btol -.-" Then his reply was tanye-ing again where we lepak-ing . Crap [!] Then from blk 36 , we wait for Wan at blk 2 there plak , psal my classmates tgh maen bola there . Dorg maen no life sak , seriously . Then , Wan came .. blablablax , he took Syafiqah nyer handphone , kasot aku , cerminmate Syafiqah .
Went home at 6 plus , cos thats the time i got my shoe back -.- reached home at 8pm , brotha told me Daddy informed him to tell me to call him when i got home . I called ..
me : hello ?
papa : aah ! , asal lambat balek ?
me : uh ? takder uhk , tady hilang wallet uh . tady carik ngan Syafiqah .
papa : sampai kul 8 baru balek ?!
me : a'ah ..
papa : what time are you supposed to sampai rumah ?
me : uuuh , before 5 ?
papa : before 3.30 kan ?
me : oh , a'ah , yela , 3.30 .
papa : then ? camne wallet hilang ? handphone hilang , cermin mate hilang .. abeh nanti ape ? laptop hilang ?
me : tak lah . abeh lagy tadi buat homework jap , then carik wallet , then , tnggu train , then miss train lagi psal banyk org , tak muat masok .
papa : abeh ? macam mane kaw ngan syafiqah lak ?
me : psal , nana ngan dier naek same bus pe .. dier teman uh ..
papa : uh kaykay . laen kali kaw balek sblm 3.30 . jgn lmbt lmbt .
*then , he put down*
crap [!] WAN ~ laen kali , must jumper early uh , asyik lambat je . kecoh uh :D
Tuesday, August 25, 2009 9:34 PM
Came to school super early (: That's because i didnt sleep :D I slept the whole period for Science .Was super sleepy D: After school , met up with Ayu . I hugged him as if we wont be seeing each other the minute after that . I ♥ my boyf so much [!] He is my special one , no matter what or whom may come along between us . Let only death separate us apart from each other . Papa ! Ma nak hug papa lamelame , and tanak let go (: Love you .
Monday, August 24, 2009 9:48 PM
Had the crappy examination onRed Cross First Aid , so , went to Dhoby Ghaut there . As per normal , my people came late , we went to Macdonalds at Plaza Singapura before we went for examination . After eating , we find our way to the Red Cross House , went to level 3 , and we were late . We were wanting badly to fail , as in , my people . We even prayed that we'll fail :D crap ! So , jyeah , blablabla .. and the examination goes on ..
In school , heard D said that , her brotha , and hafiz , and wan , had those small crush on me :D i thought i had those feelings earlier on . But , i'm still sticking to Ayu , we can be friends by the way , like we're now -.- hahahha :D
Tummy Crampx ! hmph >.<>
Currently listening to : Nobody [english version] - Wonder Girls (:
Sunday, August 23, 2009 11:19 PM
At last ! My blogs done , got messed up on the previous one . So , here (:
But , super quiet , no music . Each time i insert my playlist thingy ,
the whole navigation wont work . So , jyeap . Tomorrow ,
i'm going to AMKhub , with Alin and Heidi , maybe with Lysha too .
We'll be getting tha same bag . My prepaid's going lowlowlowlow ):
Can't text with Baby . But , we meeting on Tuesday (: Hehehe ..
P.S : Syster , no more downloads -.-
i dont like it messy by the way .
so , yea . If youre not using it ,
delete off the programme (:
Saturday, August 22, 2009 8:41 PM
First day of puase , jyeah [!] i made it , one day .. LOL ,
how i made it ? sahor in the morning , then play computer awhile ,
then , sleeeeepx ~ until 6 plus , then , left with like just an hour to fast .
Tidy the house up , then bathe , by the time i even finish my bath ,
its already buke time , hahahha :D
Spammers , spam all you want (: The past wont gimme me a damn .
You want to act big phark uh ? makcik kaw nyer puki punyer
suami punyer lan jiao uh . Your mother never give you name uh ?
[ Anonymous , Pb ] -.- LOL uh .. Nothing better to do uh ?
So what if i lost my virginity last year ? i'm the only one on Earth
uh ? Back off uh , you jealous uh ? KPP Larh Seyhs ! Those
news are so last year . Got see me fuck meh ? You go fuck swine uh .
Dont tell me you never fuck uh . Say people , never say your friends .
Dont tell me your friends never fuck horr . Everybody will fuck one uh .
Friday, August 21, 2009 10:10 PM
Happy Birthday ToLYSHASTARR
Celebrated Gegerl Lysha's 14th birthday today , she looked kinda
saddy when she cut the cake ( -.- ) cik oi , tak perlu ek sadsad .
Haahha .. Things are okay , as per normal , i dont give a damn (:
She got her HelloKitty cake :D thanks to the WIND , she doesnt
need to blow all the fire off the candles , except for one of it .
Hahahahha ! She had her faced PAMMED by Jermaine with the cake .
Tomorrow puase dokk ! wooohoo , me cannot waits for Jalan Raye with all .
Ellysha and her guy [hope bleh make it ] , Syafiqah and her BESTFRIEND ,
and her friends and his friends , and you guys the friends , and my kakak
and her guy and her friends and her guy's friends , and Maryana and her
guy , and her guy's friends , and her guy's friends' couple . HAHAHHAHA ..
I'm not sure if can make it uh , all .. So , ((((: Baby told me his family & friends
taking pink . I havent decide mine . Aku happy gyler dokk ! :D tak tawu asal .
Thursday, August 20, 2009 10:25 PM
Everyday in school became Hell now , previously it felt like heaven on Earth . Now , Hell on Earth , it's okay , i'll try to keep up with the solo-ness .
Simply said , i hate my life , but love the loved ones in it . Avoiding people every
single day , i wished they won't even know me in the first place .
Perhaps the emo-ness feeling is still in me . Tried to control myself when
a person disturbs me . Having more friends only troubles me , make me
stressed up with their bitchy gossips . My blog , my post , my say .
Those sadness are still in me , every night i cried till i fell asleep . I would
love to be asleep , because illusions are better than life , illusions smiles me .
Peeps should know i'm not into straight-forward , kinda thang . Leave me
alone if your not even sincere by heart . Life sucks , my love-life is better .
The only person i have now , is myself . I always share my happiness but
not really on my fwcking sufferments . Back ups , no need uh . Stand alone
is enough , because nobody is sharing my life . I have one heart , one life .
My life isn't like a game with cheatcodes , it's like living in an invincible
jar where nobody can see me keeping those cries . I hate to wait , especially
when the person is already nearby and not meeting me and delaying
the time , sometimes i felt like i wanna text you that i'm going home after
hours of waiting baby . I cried everytime i wait , my heart always aches
each time i tried not to cry in public . I cried in class just now , thank
god nobody saw , cos my class was watching the whatever CD thingy ..
Music shows my feelings , drawings shows what i was thinking of , poetry
is my speech , photography is what i need for drawings :
Everyday live my life with blur sight , lost my spectacles , scared to even
go home alone . Everything happend so fast . My fantastic rainbow-ed life ,
sucks alot ! THANKS ALOT UH !
Wednesday, August 19, 2009 10:43 PM
If you dont know what i'm going through every single day , then just
dont bother being a friend of mine okay . Takde kawan tak mampos
dokk ! Say what you mean , mean what you say . Korg kater jek 'i'll
be there for you' , in the end , bengkok kepa kate-kate kaw . Klau aku cukop
duet , aku ikot korg uh . Aku tak ikot Alin ngan Heidi pegy mane2 ,
psal tu aku nyer psal . Korg tak puas hati pe ? lan jiao uh . Aku puas
hati uh . Prangai bdk kecik sial . Grow up lah . Stakat nie puki konek nye
pekare korg carik psal . Korg fiker aku banyak nye free kepe nk layan
prangai gini . Kaw nak bace , bace uh . Aku tak halangkan korg dari bace nie post uh .
Kaw nak translate untk sesiape pon boleh uh , aku tak psal uh . Aku tanak start
prangai sial uh , psal aku tawu aku conferm tak fiker sblm bbl nye . Macam puki !
FIVE-SEVEN-THREE-OH XpressMuxic . My dream phone , AND THIS
MSN KEPT ON TELLING ME I JUST RECEIVED A NEW EMAIL
FROM TAGGED , LIKE more than 8 times ! Baby ! i love you like i've never loved
anybody before you . I wanna stay right beside you every day & night babyboi (:
Got nothing much to say . OH YAH , my right arm ! theres a bubble .
My brother ! i was lighting the lighter , i hold on to the fire looonglong ,
then my brother snatch the lighter from my hands and putthe metal thingy on my arm .
Friday, August 14, 2009 7:57 PM
Didn't attend school for the past four days , doesn't have the mood of going though . Daddy
dropped me at NUH , because he was late . Went to school , got late . Went to form class ,
took temperature , headed to indoor sports hall , i was like , below my teacher's nose ,
then my class splitted , girl's to the trackmill there or however you spell it (-.-) the guys
on soccer . I walked , and saw Sya across the assembly area , we met up in tha middle .
& blablabla , then went to the toilet till P.E end , and Sya's D&T end too .
We pon class till we met up with Amanda then , after awhile , Ms wong saw us ,
&& accuse us of smoking eh . We , i swear we didnt smoke uh . So , wrote yellow form ,
had a talk with teacher , & went back to class for the remaining time .
My last chance now , another problem in school , or wherever , go pertapis D:
GirlsHome . Sianx . Met up with baby after school [^-^] Then , took bus from bukit merah & end
at woodlands interchange . Met up with sister , and took 913 home & here i am (:
My love for Ayu came back after meeting with him today . Felt like we've not met for
years . As i can see , i'm into two guys currently . But Wan is just my friend , didnt
asked for any steady going thingy . I'm scared of getting hurt again . I know Ayu need me ,
as much as i do need him . I can see that i'm his everything & he is mine too . Friends ? i don't
really need them . I only need sincere friends (: My life savers :
Ayu , Wan , Sya , Lysha , Dyan . ( They show me that i could trust them.)
So , get yourself trustable for me [:
Thursday, August 13, 2009 3:06 PM
Confessed to Ayu that i'm in love with him & another guy . He was like . . . . . . , i asked Wan if he heart me , he replied no . I dont know why i felt like crying when he replied no . I should be happy that he said no , furthermore , i can be with Ayu with no guilt of loving another person .
I dont even know whats best for myself , why must love always occur in my life ?!
CRABMEAT . friends ? love ? family ? studies ? All came tumbling down on me .
When will i even get to show my nerdy , goofy , lame self ?! I dont wanna be special . I dont
wanna be your everything , cos when im gone , im your nothing . I dont even think of having
ANYMORE friends , cos SOME friends kept me looking down on having more friends .
So what if i dont have friends ?! I wont die . So what if there's beauty in you , but no heart ?!
For what be my friend if you're not being truthful ? I am different towards different
people , why must i always adjust myself to their expectations ?! Who the hell are you for me
to do what you want me to do ? A friend , or dog ? So what if i dont have the looks ?
No one is even there for me . Cant even cry at home . i wanna cry , but only when im alone .
i cant even be alone . GARH ! >0<
Wednesday, August 12, 2009 9:40 AM
Now i'm at Bukit Merah . Daddy dropped me off at NUH , because he
was kinda late . So , walked passed 7-11 , saw Heidi . So , i accompanied her till Alin
comes . Then , i waited for 196 , and met up with Diana at bustop ,
had a short chat while waiting for 196 to come .. So , 196 came , broad the bus ,
and alight at here . Now , i should've brought my charger ! Crappy .
i'm net-hacking . Networks here aren't that good :D i want photoshop !
Photoscape ! Whatever thingy . My battery left 45% \:
i'm waiting for Wan to come online . Gah D: missing ayu & wan /: greedy?
yes i am : didn't attend school by the way . Not having the mood to attend it .
Happy Birthday Ridwan !
I Miss You , Ayu !
Tuesday, August 11, 2009 10:40 PM
(: After school , went to T'garden , went with Mil , Sya , Elfy , Hafiz & Waaaaaaan (:
We lepakx at Macdonald the pondok there , then went Stirling .. and Hafiz
accompanied me till my 913 bus come .. (: wanwanwan .
I don't know why , all of a sudden Ayu is fading out in my heart . I never
thought i would love two as much as this . Wan knows i'm attached , Ayu knows
i always text with Wan . I can't let go of Ayu , we've gone through so so so much .
Baby , i seriously don't know how you're doing there , & i'm fun-ing and hal-ing here .
Friends ? haiss .. Sorry uh , i don't really like to befriend with someone ,
who backstab uh . Friends are friends uh , but language , watch out with it uh .
I don't care how much hatred y'wanna have it on me uh . But ,
i mean what i say . Friends , they are there when your soul is under construction .
But , some people , don't know how to think of how others think ,
like , Common Sense uh . Straight forwardly uh , i'm saying this ,
you all , are living your life in a childish way , settle things is the kiddy way .
We said it , one fall lady fall , all fall .
In the end what i hear ? ***blabbered of bullshitshzxs***
Monday, August 10, 2009 4:31 AM
Hoedown Throwdown .
Weeeeeeetzxs ! i got it , i got it , i got it , i got it and again , i got it !
(: Yana can dance the hoedown throwdown now .
Quite fun yar know :D You should try out the dance .
withing like , 2 or 3 mornings , and i got it !
But , i kinda need a little more practice , cos , im not
really quite sure with it . So , more practice (:
& i want it purrfect .
o o o
pop it , lock it , polka dot it
country fivin' , hip hop hip
put your arms in the sky , move side to side
jump to the left , stick it , glide .
zig zag 'cross the floor
shuffle in diagonal
when the drum hits , hands on your his
one-footed one eighty twist
and then a zig zag , step , slide
lean it left ,clap three times
shake it out , head to toe
throw it all together , that's how we roll .
Sunday, August 9, 2009 4:57 AM
*Headbang* Havent posted for days , hahahaha , kinda lazy , plus nothing
special (-.-) Anyway , thought of updating for a moment .
So , here it is . Hahaha , I can't sleep , so went to watch
HannahMontanaTheMovie on Youtube . Was SUPER nice .
After watching , still not sleepy . So learned some hoedown throwdown
dance thingy thingy thing . Tired sia , i went , grrrr .. Not as easy as
it seems :D But , practice makes perfect ! So i danced , and pause the video ,
and play it again and again and again , tried to get it right , now i got the
first few right (: Then , my step brotha got home , i felt pai seyh , so , i
stopped the dance and shut the laptop down . By the way , i don't
dance in front of people . So , don't ask me to dance infront of ya .
Unless , i'm being krazy uh , then i wont think , then i'll dance .
PS : i miss my boyfriend like super much . ( Bored to the max ! )
Friday, August 7, 2009 5:25 PM
So , today .. end school early , at 10 am .
That's good , and i didnt know , bcos i wasnt
in school yesterday :D Now , im super tired ,
but happy too (: ive no idea why . Had a random
gathering at blk 31 from arnd 10 or 11 plus , till like
3 plus (--.--) Down-syndrom ! xD !! Those girls
are like [vomit blood all over] *splatter splatter*
& so were their guys HAHAHA . Loose face uh ..
:D wear boots in spore ? whats up sia .. Have a new
no. by the way :D hahahha , just waiting for a temporary
phone now : sianz .. tmr saturday .. whoohoo ! :D
PS : Peeps , i will give out my no. when i got my phone .
so , i wont give out now (: LOVES <3
Wednesday, August 5, 2009 4:31 AM
Their hair is so cute , and so is the guy :D
im adoreing guys with that hair ! wowies .
Love those highlights and style (:
Im loving these hairs . My all-time favourite style of hair .
:D Love those highlights and i want the striped thingy on the
small amnt of hair there , the there . gah D: you should get it
(--.--) LOVED (:
Get That .
Thinning shears(or thinning scissors as I like to call them) should be used to
thin out your hair. I suggest Massugu thinning scissors as these scissors have
been designed specifically with the beginning hairdresser in mind. These are simply gap-toothed scissors that cut only half the
hair. These also come with various gap sizes, depending on what
you need cut away.I've seen how many people struggle with thick
hair and I can just imagine the pain it is to manage it, hope this helps :D
Basically , this lady here is my Sister (:
Dyan is what peeps call her . We are
always together , we went through everything
together too . She annoys me , i annoy
back at her (>.<) People say we look the
alike (^-^) do we ? Well , sometimes .
We are always on work , (: which is on the
lappy every after midnight . She'll be using
my mum's lappy & i will use my dad's :D
It's kinda funny . The difference between us
is that , one is rarely at home xD & one is more
into malay songs than the other . We grew
together . We're 4 years apart . Together for
10 years already . She's known to be my step-
sister , by the way . But , what do we care ?
Take away the 'step-' & we're sisters , Jyeah !
Tuesday, August 4, 2009 9:26 PM
Sometimes , i just dont know how to live my life . I just realised that i dont really know myself . Mostly i could answer to myself is just 'anything','i dont know' and more 'blabla' . All i want is just to be alone . Why is that so hard ? A girl who can't even have her own room ?! My wish to stay at dover is that , i can be alone . I can even study better . Your thinking is that , when i stay dover , i will cause trouble again , RiGhT ? i always know what's on your mind . Even though when i'm doing my stuff , and your looking at me , and you think i'm not looking at you , i can still know you are looking at me . I am 14 , but some people treat me like i'm 10 ? I dont flirt . And thats whom i am . i wanna die , i want to die , im gonna die . i wanna end my life . i cant even be with the one i love . you will say that i dont love you , but , what have you done to me to make me love you ? Basically , my problem is nothing . People dislike me just because they misjudge me by my outside . I dont care if y'wanna hate me . I dont hate anyone , i didnt copy anyone . Like some will ask ," who teach you uh ?","you learn from who uh ?" and more blablabla . I'm feeling super i dont know . I'm so confused with myself . I just have no idea how to say it ..
Didnt went to school today :D I'm sorry Fairfield , happy birthday by the way . can't celebrate your day , i was too lazy to be awake for school . haiss , students these days . So lazy , don't know what else to say about them . haisshhhh ! :D HAHA . Woke up at 3 pm today . i slept early yesterday . Wan called my house , but i was asleep . SORRY WAN . haish , i miss Daddy . Havent contact him , yesterday i called him , but he didn't activate his free incoming --.-- & the scar on my knee is superdisgusting . My flesh is super seen . love y'all <3
Monday, August 3, 2009 8:17 PM
What a day . Was early for school :D [which is good.] Normal school days , with more blabla , but somehow , i felt awkward today .. my phone [!] D': sadsadsad . super upset that my phone can't share the day with me ): Can't have my music , can't have my photos , can't have my messages [!] sharktzs . i miss you phone ! :D Went home alone because i need to write a statement (-.-) for not going home and pon-ing school . sianz [!] then the teacher said , previously i was like , energetic kinda thing .. But , now like .. each time see teacher must hide face wan :D my english damn lan wan eh .. Anyways , yea .. I wanna phone ): Having my first blue book now ):
Saturday, August 1, 2009 11:44 PM
*headbang* " Get on the dance floor baby , show me what you've got"
I began my dance , wow , some ecstacy . Dance like there's just no tomorrow .
"Hey chicas , have some drink" I didn't bother , and continued
dancing my way in the spotlight . Said to myself , "Daymn , i'm loving this
feeling right now . But no other feeling can ever change my feeling towards
you beside me ."Continued dancing till i drop . A shining star caught the sight
of my eye , showed up a hand , pulled me up , and i gave a long , tight , warm
hug to him . He made me tilted my head , and gave me a soft touch to my
chubby cheeks . The inferno in me kept growing out of love .
Tried finding some space to cool down my mind , and sat on the nearby stool ,
had a drink , and enjoyed the muxic . He came running to me , grab
my hand and sat on my gloomy shadow .
"Do you like me ?" He asked .
I replied , "I don't think so . Why ?"
"What must i do to make you happy ?"
"i dont know ."
"Tell me who has fished your heart and caught it ?"
"Alot of guys had fished for it . But i got
hooked to only one , which is you . I don't like you , i love you .
You don't need to make me much more happier , cos you're making
me happy now by holding me hand ."
Day of yesterday , went to Cantonment in the morning , met up with i/o omg ! he is so rilek , cool seyhs . Well i act blur lurhs , then end the thing fast . :D hahhaa , then , after that , went to VivoCity . I was with my sister actually . So , yea , went Vivo & went 'shopping' at Giant . I took , i mean , bought . I bought some stuffs . Then , we headed to Vivorooftop , and ate our bought BurgerKing , SUPERHOT DAY . I was like , suntanning -.- then , after slacking around there , we headed to ToaPayoh , and met up with my sister's Utube friends . Hear them play guitar and sang , then , my sister and i headed to Orchard , met up with my sister's boy and his friends and his brother . Then , my sister and her guy sent me to somersetmrt , and i headed back home from there alone , hahhaaha , super tired -o- i miss my handphone ! i wanna new phone ! i'm wishing for nokia 5730 Xpressmuxic .
Day of today , like , wht the hellT.T Ridwan told me i cant meet syafiqah already , and tht syafiqah told him that . Parents ?! GAH , for once give us some understanding uh . our way of life is different from others . AND NOBODY teaches me how to be like this kay , to mama uh . Dont ever seyh my sister is the one who teach me . Its just coincidentaly , we took the same path . A life is for us to experiment good & bad , a world is for us to explore . I may not be matured enough to understand all these things , but , hey , im 14 , havent gone through 35 or what yet . i have a much more longer journey to go . Studies are only for 10 years ? which will survive you for like 40 years ? 50 years ? i am not being a devil or angel here . im stating whats on my mind now . i may not have wonderful friends , but , they are always there for me . They may give me advices , but its my choice to ignore it or not . I know i've to study , sometimes , i need a break and try other things . Who in the world has never say any vulgarities in their life ? Who in the world has never done bad things ? Who in the world is good enough to know what will happen ? This is life uh , what we have now , wont be when our body die . we will be alive forever but not our body . We know each other when we're alive , but we dont when our soul left the body . We need money to survive on Earth , we need friends to make us think brighter , but we need nothing when we're dead . I may be blur , i may be not , sometimes , its just a way of ending things . If i had 3 wishes , i want to be with Shari forever , i want no kiosk , i want every hardship to end .
Baby , being with you has always been my happiness . I felt safer whenever you're around , i've felt it . i felt happier whenever you're right here beside me . You kept me laughing always , at times i got mad , but i'm sorry on that . I didnt regret loving you dearest . I love you so much , and i mean it .