Let's just make this simple.
I'm having a relationship with Aliff Bin Raffi Faizal Bin Omar
'She didn't just kissed, she claimed ownership. Took his mouth with urgency,
as if her life depended on her kissing him.' You know how is it when you love
someone? And the hard part, the bad part, the Jerry Springer Show part is
that you never stop loving someone. There’s always a piece of them in your heart.
Were you so afraid of losing something you love, that you refuse to love anything?
Sometimes I'd be glad if only you'd fought for me.
She fell, she hurt, she felt. She lived. And for all the tumble of her experiences,
she still had hope. Maybe this next time would do the trick. Or maybe not. But
unless you stepped into the game, you would never know. When we were children,
we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable.
But to grow up is to accept vulnerability. To be alive is to be vulnerable. My HomepageTaggedTumblrTwitter
Know that the pain will pass and when it passes ,
you will become stronger , happier , more sensitive and aware .
I've been having a weird dream lately, different dreams but same person. He appeared suddenly. For the first time when I had that dream, I thought it was normal and that dream would be my last type of dream. The following day, I had a dream of the same person, I'm not going to mention who because that would be the most WRONG thing to do, but I'm just so curious if this means anything because I'd dreamt of the person thrice, and I know that is not normal. When I woke up, I was thinking... if I shared the dream to someone, will that dream come true, if it doesn't then I would share. But for safety's sake, I kept it to myself.
If I'd follow my heart's advises, I'd left a long time ago. I'm just not sure what's pulling me back to stay where I don't want to stay. I can't take another of your insult, another of your scolding, another of your beating, I can't accept the fact that everytime I want to spend my day with you outside, you would change my whole good mood to a bad one. Is being with me a bad thing for you? Why do I always trouble you? I know very well that there are other girls that could make your day better than how I do. You made me feel useless. I felt used, indirectly. What have I done? How have I changed? I really can't stand it anymore.. but whenever I see you, whenever I looked back at you, the only thought that went through me mind was.. 'baby, I'm going to spend my life with you, the only way to thank you is to give you my life.' and why? because when my family wasn't by my side, he took me in, he worked his butt off to give me food and shelter and it would be a waste to leave him. On the other hand, how do I see an end to all this pain I feel? I don't see an end to it. I can't cry, I can't scream, I can't shout, I can't share to anyone.. I can't do anything.. Damn! Why must I go through a life like this.. I never wanted a life like this.. No! Not a kid at this age, I can't even feed my own kid. No.. why?.. It all happened too fast, too fast for me. Should I say, "Someone, please save me from this misery." or "Come on babe, stay strong. It'll get better."
If it wasn't because of my step-sister and step-brother, things wouldn't be like this.