Monday, December 20, 2010 4:34 AM
Everything felt like a dream to me. This whole thing, really is a dream. It's like I've no idea if I'm awake now. I always believe in bad people can change, but I don't know. Anyway, Brian and I are still together. I've noticed the rainbow in me, it's beautiful. I don't know how long this is going to last but I know we would not last long, we are religions apart, he won't believe in who I believe in, he won't teach me things I don't know in my own religion. He will leave me, and when that time comes, I am certain that I will miss the times we had together. He always make me smile although I'm at my worst. He's always there for me. When he's gone for about 2 weeks or so, we really do drift apart. Sometimes, he could be very annoying too, and that makes him cute for his reaction.
I don't know if I really deserve being with him. He could get someone much much more better. He's that fragile glass. Feelings. I've been broken repeatedly, again and again till I got tired of this cycle of guy's breaking girl's heart and fucking don't care. I've been carried away with bits of guys way, because I know I could give a better love than those guys I've been with. As in, before this current guy.. he's a real cutie ♥ Hehehehe, it's true! Okay, I'm going to sleep now. Goodnight.
You can hope, but it's best if you have a back up plan.
In case your hopes vanished into thin air without you knowing.
And you know how that pinching feeling kill.
P/S: I still love my boyfriend. My one and only.