Yesterday , conferenced right ? yeap , w adam :D then , w mil and halfway got diana and i think that's all ? i guess so . Then , halfway , my mum told me to put down the phone cos it was like around 12 plus ? then , i told them i going to sleep :D then , i tried to sleep . After minutes and minutes of trying to sleep , and tossing around like fzck , i suddenly imagined some stuff and i cried . It goes superrr bastard kind of way , i told sya the exact thing already . It was like , well , idk how to say and type it down , but its about me , adam , wynn , sya , mil , diana , we wanted to lepak at Bukit Merah , then i walking at the void deck , saw my boyf kissing a girl whom i thought was his scandal -.- idk who is she , but i'm so pissed off w this pic . Ha Ha \: maybe his cousin ? friend ? best friend ? or more .. ? idk , hahaha ) :
After having those thoughts till 2 plus in the morning , i still can't get myself to sleep , i texted baby .. I was actually mad at him , he kept on saying i have scandal )': like who not angry ? then each time i say that he got scandal , he will say " you think i'm like you uh ? " wth uh . *sigh* then when i text him already , i went online awhile on msn , then appear offline after i saw khair online , lol am i bad ? no okay (: then , turned off my lappy , received a call -.- from khair , i was like O.O why is he calling me in the middle of the morning ? its like 2 plus in the morning . Took his call , chatted and storied , well damn ! he tackle my hati xiol . Then , we otp till my alarm clock rang , hahahah :D he's been into me like , kinda months already , like how could he fall for me ? i asked him what i've done to make him fall for him , by actual fact , we only chatted through msn only :D hahaha , i was wondering how the hell he fell for me . He sounds nice after awhile chatting with him otp . He said he is Patrick Star and i'm Spongebob -.- longgggg story . he actually stayed up with me throughout the sleepless hours of mine . hahhaha .
:D :) :| :\ :( idk , falling over and over again , i don't know if i really should uh well y'know -.- like .. 'like' him , he's too of those pop kind , one thing i'm hating always is people contacting ex-es , like , i'm slightly sensitive at times . Ha Ha , i think . My boyf ? i can see he doesnt contact w his ex , but aiyah , big fuck nabei luh ~ ! i dont understand him , like , the other time i saw him with this girl , like , happy happy , from far i thought to myself , they look good together , the other one , i was like , didn't even know that this lady(: was there , suddenly i look at him , the only thing i saw was both hugging :D aww , so sweet .__. i straight away look at my handphone back , to avoid anyone from noticing me notice that 'scene' , then sya was like shaking my leg , like telling me to see uh , then i was like ignore her . siannnnnnnnnn , nabuey ! i love myself (:
i'm tired of laughing and smiling . but , looking back about me , i've changed (: like , idk how uh . but , last time , i wasn't as crazy as now , i wasn't as talkative as now , i wasn't as bright as now , i wasn't as strong to say 'no' as now :D but , the bloody tears can't go away from me , it'll always go rolling down my chubby cheecks . i can't forgive myself to how stupid i was to hate myself so much to actually allow him to touch me . he's the worst enemy i've ever had , though i dont have one . but he is one . he's known as 'dog' among my friends and i . why is he named as 'dog' ? cos he fucks like one horny bastard dog . i'm supposed to forget him , but i can't haha . you try , every day met up , and fucks each time you meet , and yo uhave no idea why you still love him when yo hated what he'd done to you . gaaaaaaaaaaahhh D: forget it .__. i'm supposed to be happy that they've made me smile and laugh like how i'm supposed to . i know you might say i'm lame and still a kid and whatever bullshyt stuff uh , but hey , i'm 14 , so what ? different people got different mind scores , well , if y'know what i mean , of which i think you don't , urgh ! wtv .
Whatever it is , i'm going to sleep now , a real deep sleep ! like sleeping beauty ~ goddamnsleepy xial . nights .