Friday, February 26, 2010 11:41 PM
howhowhow ?
23Feb ,
How I wished you were right beside me , wiping my tears away gently .
I miss you mickey , I'm sorry if I looked like I'm into the no mood . But
I was scared , scared to get home and I'm so stressed out . I almost killed
myself just now , had a fight with mama monster , i told her i shouldn't have
come home and should've just sat at the staircase . She wanted my dad to
confiscate my phone , take ah . The next day sure I wont come home wann .
My eyes are swollen now , havent texted anyone after I switched off my phone .
Plus this Rahman .. We're nothing , just like close friends but mickey got the
wrong idea . I don't know what to do . I told both maman and ayu that I
wont be contacting them . So jyeah . I got to go to sleep . Nights .
24feb ,
OMG . I'm at school bustop now , I wish I could just continue my sleep and dream
freely rather than waking up to face the unbeautiful life of mine . Another day has
gone , I'm feeling the soleness in me , I cried so much yesterday hoping to someone
would be understanding enough to care for my feelings and comfort me . The last
thing I remember was I found my happiness and I was on top of the world , now
I'm falling down , deep deep down . However could I hate my mum so much to the core ?
They always say parent's dont hate you , but why don't I have any sense of feeling out
of it . I got to go now . School bell's rang ..
24feb ,
School has just ended . I'm in class now . Now is 130pm . I cried again today during
recess , haven't ate anything since yesterday . Right now , I know my mum is outside
school , she texted me . Am I supposed to get out of school now ? I wanna stay in class .
If only I could overnight here in school . But well , I can't get over it . I ignored my boyf's
calls and messages the whole day . Felt like dying still . Damn . I guess I'm getting out
now . Can't get anywhere if I were to just stay here . bye then /:
27feb (232am)
Here I am , early in tha morning , not asleep , playing laptop and blogging early in
the morning , omg ! cannot take it , my eyes sleeeeeeppyyyy . I was on the phone with
maman the whole night :D omg , he is funny . He is , i don't know . He wants me to be
his , but I told him luhs , may the best man wins luhs . sigh , he asked if I lovee him .
I don't know .. Two days back , on the 25thfeb , mickey and minnie's one year and one month .
hahaha ! Dance dance dance dance , every Friday , go dance , then bathe after that .
bathe where ? school luh seyhsss . HAHA . I'm confused these days , but gladly I could
still focus on my studies [:
I do still ..
miss you ,
just like the air that I breath ,
I need you with me
Im not gunna lie ,
I cant imagine my life without you, but I ..
suppose I will survive .