Thursday, August 13, 2009 3:06 PM
Confessed to Ayu that i'm in love with him & another guy . He was like . . . . . . , i asked Wan if he heart me , he replied no . I dont know why i felt like crying when he replied no . I should be happy that he said no , furthermore , i can be with Ayu with no guilt of loving another person .
I dont even know whats best for myself , why must love always occur in my life ?!
CRABMEAT . friends ? love ? family ? studies ? All came tumbling down on me .
When will i even get to show my nerdy , goofy , lame self ?! I dont wanna be special . I dont
wanna be your everything , cos when im gone , im your nothing . I dont even think of having
ANYMORE friends , cos SOME friends kept me looking down on having more friends .
So what if i dont have friends ?! I wont die . So what if there's beauty in you , but no heart ?!
For what be my friend if you're not being truthful ? I am different towards different
people , why must i always adjust myself to their expectations ?! Who the hell are you for me
to do what you want me to do ? A friend , or dog ? So what if i dont have the looks ?
No one is even there for me . Cant even cry at home . i wanna cry , but only when im alone .
i cant even be alone . GARH ! >0<