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Mariana☮

17, Female ,Singapore .

Let's just make this simple.
I'm having a relationship with ~~Aliff Bin Raffi~~ Faizal Bin Omar

'She didn't just kissed, she claimed ownership. Took his mouth with urgency,
as if her life depended on her kissing him.' You know how is it when you love
someone? And the hard part, the bad part, the Jerry Springer Show part is
that you never stop loving someone. There’s always a piece of them in your heart.
Were you so afraid of losing something you love, that you refuse to love anything?
Sometimes I'd be glad if only you'd fought for me.

She fell, she hurt, she felt. She lived. And for all the tumble of her experiences,
she still had hope. Maybe this next time would do the trick. Or maybe not. But
unless you stepped into the game, you would never know. When we were children,
we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable.
But to grow up is to accept vulnerability. To be alive is to be vulnerable.

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Know that the pain will pass and when it passes ,
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-Mariana

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Monday, November 30, 2009 8:12 PM

Yummy Night .

Had desserts yesterday at Jurong Point . Hahaha , nothing much

for updating lately , so I'm updating on random stuffs . Jyah ..

I miss school ) : and I really wanna buy my school books

super soon as possible , but its all up to my dad to decide when

to buy those stuff , I miss my boyf . I miss my friends , I miss

everyone , again . Hahaha , okay .

I asked my dad for my laptop back yesterday and it didnt

worked out . He said for what am I gonna get that laptop if

I'm still going out and stuff like that . Now without my laptop ,

might as well I get out from this house , right ? Damn .

My boyf's out to court early this morning because of his previous

case , and the damn officer open up the case again when its

so long ago kind of thing .. I'm beat , I wanna go and cook maggie

now and I'm gonna find any CDs I can find to watch and

occupy my 'laptop times' thingy . Still not getting back my

SimCard from my dad , I'll update about it once I've got back

my SimCard or got myself a new number .

Sunday, November 29, 2009 6:12 AM

RANDOM .

I sat and think back , there's just so much to think about .

The last time I had my lungs laughing out loud was

when I was without my parents/family . Why must I always

cry my heart out so that I could have the peace back in my

mind . I remembered the whole time laughter was when

I got myself busy for the arts festival competition thing .

I really got myself busy practising the dance , stayed

back almost everyday till late 6 or 7 , or even absent myself

from school merely to accompany my grandmother for almost

a week or two . That time , my mum knew about the

relationship I had with my boyf too . I even showed her his

identity card . I can meet up with my own boyf for almost

everyday and I even postpone the days which my

dad gotta fetch me to Marsiling .

Those are my emo days man . I cry and slice my wrist ,

again and again . Now , I've gotten mysef more and more

stressed up by my own mum . She just make me suck

my own life , she's my worst nightmare now . I just hate her

all the way to the core . She just get on my nerves , always man .

She creeps me out , she always wanna battle with me .

She's just sooo down to Earth !

My chances of getting myself to Dover was

"--" this close not "-------------" , and

yet she made herself thinks I dont deserve that key .

I need space man , as i looked through my friend's life ..

man , they should cherish every moment they had

with their family man . I wished I could be like them ,

get everything they ever wanted . I never got as much friends

as I do now , haha , I dont know , anyway , I got to go ,

I've updated and shall update again soon (:

Goodmorning Singapore !

Saturday, November 28, 2009 4:10 AM

I've updated .

Days passed really passed as I finally got my stress to the limit which I

never thought it might reach , to a level till my SimCard & Laptop kana

confiscated , sial uh . Now I wanna download songs also hard . Shitos

mannn ! It's been hard , so hard for me to contact Ayu now . Texted

Troy not long ago , he told me Sya got home early in the morning already ,

my mind got into an ease for a moment and got myself to stress

when Ayu didnt reply my message ) : sad much , but i cant do anything .

Hadn't spoken to my dad much today .. Or you can say eversince the'shortrunaway' i had .

Afternoon of 25 , went to Causeway with Sya , had so much fun

there ! seriously , we didnt shop there with money but eyes . Then ,

we head back to Marsiling , my house .. Met Dyana , my sister for

awhile at Civic Centre & went to the library , Sya had a short lecture

with Abg Eizman for awhile , hahaha :D Then , we headed home .

By the time i almost reached home .. I was surprised to receive a

call from my dad , I began to felt that something is just isnt right ,

so I checked the carpark near my flat , and yes , as I can see ,

my dad's car and bike was there .. I panicked the minute I saw

my dad calling me repeatedly . As I panicked , I called my sister

up , she told me to get back to Causeway Point , so I told her everything .

Blablabla , we stayed and talked , me and Sya was like seriously

thinking , because Sya has Troy for backup , because she called

him earlier on and he already got himself ready the food and stuff .

I've got a bad feeling about that anyway and that makes me thinking

more and more , soon after , my sister and co. brought us somewhere else ..

Away from CP .

We ended up slacking in an open void deck , Sya was panicking .

Ate and sat there , had some time charging my phone , hehehe ,

I always got ready the charger y'know , even to school

I bring it :D hahaha ! Anyway , back to the story .. I had to piss ,

so me and Sya headed back to civic centre , went to the toilet

near the macdonalds .. We washed our face and pee-ed there . Hahah !

bad english Yana .. -.- Let's make it short here , went back to my sister ,

and told her i wanna go home , we reached to the void deck , went somewhere ,

settled down , and i suddenly felt scared to step into the

house .. So , my plan was to wait till my parents go to work , so i accompanied

Sya .. Blablabla , we went to Yan's place which is the same block as me ..

Then , we asked him if we could charge my phone at his place . While

charging , I told Sya to give me ten seconds to rest , i rested , by the time

i woke up , i felt myself like i was in a dream a few minutes back .

Hahahah ! Then , Sya and I pitied Yan , cos he was like laying on the

floor looking so tired and so on , me and Sya get back the phone from

him , and by then it was 425am in the morning . We headed to Shell ,

while we were walking , we coincidentally met my older step brother ,

he just got off his friend's bike , we got NOWHERE to hide , no choice ,

stupid but seriously no choice , we hid under a stupid tree xD ! He saw

us , blablablabla , and he didnt know that my whole family was finding

for me .. So , i just texted him not to mention anything to my dad , he

was like 'okay' . After me and sya did our stuff in the toilet , we headed

back to my block , and we rested awhile till 7am , my sister called me

up , and asked where was i , at about 730 she was with us already ..

She went inside the house to help me check who's in the house , so i

can get in . She told me that it was my brother , the one who saw me

and sya , only was at home . So , i get in , and had a bath with Sya ,

we ate awhile , and i send her to woodlands interchange till her bus

came , she headed to Troy's place .. I got home , and I slept till it as like

7pm .. I woke up , and did some light chores . And ate , and slept till my

parents got home . Didnt bother them much , i continued sleeping on

the bed till the next morning which was today , i mean yesterday ,

which was Hari Raya Haji .. My sister woke me up to tell me that

my Simcard was taken away by my dad , while my laptop was taken

since the day I got home from the short runaway . So , that's that man .

Damn , I knew I shouldn't have panicked my way till how it brings my

feelings to this state . I miss my boyf so much , can't life be much

more faster ? I miss school and my friends man . It's like , my friends

are my family while my family is like my friends . I don't know man ..

All I want now is to hug my boyf now . Hahaha , been missing him

so much , the last time I met him was like , weeks back . Anyway ,

as per normal , I got to go , parents are waking up . Whose laptop

am I using ? My step sister's (: normally I use mine while she use

hers and we'll be in the net till morning man . HAHAH . Bye (:

Friday, November 27, 2009 3:37 PM

Please Take Note .

Babes and Dudes ,

Do not contact me for the moment , because my

dad confiscated my laptop & my simcard , after

the 'short ruaway' with Sya . Hahaha :D

i'll update the story once everything's okay .

Yours Untruly ,
Yana Smallbie

Wednesday, November 25, 2009 9:53 AM

Ten Month Anni .

HELLO ! :D Haven't sleep . Thon with Bobo , Sya & Boii Kid . Halfway ,
i called Ayu , just wanna have a little chat with him , then Bobo wanna talk with him , so i pass
my phone to him . We laughed and laughed and laughed , then suddenly things got serious
till batang all kluar, both wanna turon tempat each other lah what lah . Fuck sia . Then ,
because of a small matter , they make it big . Then , halway i took the phone from Bobo ,
then i told my boyf not to come down and he kept on insisting to come down here . I got
fucked up , then i told him " u nak tron then break ." Sial uh , i didn't know why i suddenly
mentioned that 'break' sial .. Then , he said " i nak tron jgk , break pon break uhk ." Well ,
something like it lah . Then , i straight away put down the phone . He texted me , and i
didn't feel the vibration in my pocket , so i didn't reply . Then , he called back but i rejected .
He texted me to call him , so i called . He asked me why did i hang up the phone , i was like ...
then i told him that i accidentally hung up the call . Then , blablabla , after a few talk , cried .
He wanna talk to Sya , so i passed the phone to her and went crazy , like putting my shorts down,
and wear it back but the other way round -.- then , i showed Bobo and Kid , then i went back downstairs and wear back the shorts properly but all the way up above my waist
and be krazyyyyy . Hahaha , then i went to Bobo and Kid again , had a talk with them ..
Got bullied by Bobo , then halfway , Sya told me that Ayu wanna talk to me , i was like ,
struggling myself to the phone , like i dropped my phone from storey 41 and reaching for the
phone so much kind of thing . Then , Bobo let me go , by the time i got my ears to the phone ,
he hang up . Then i called him back , he didn't answer . Then i didn't feel the vibration .. i felt
vibration , i checked my phone , and i've 3 missed calls and a message , so i read the
message first , he said not to call him back . Then , i checked the missed calls , from him . I
called him back la , then i said " U bilang i takmo call , tapi u call i jugak .. " he said " oh , tertekan ."
jyah right . tertekan .. heard that loads and multiple of times . Then he wanted to put down ,
i told him not to put down because i wanna talk to him .. So i asked why he put down the phone ,
before i get to say bye and stuff .. BLABLABLABLA ( Just to make it short . )

Then he told me this , " U , y'know biler i bbl ngan Sya , i laugh u tau tak . i laughed .. " i was like ,
oh , so you wanna laugh ?.. So i told him " oh , okay . u nak laugh ? u nak bbl ngan dier tak ?
kasi u lagi laugh .. klau u nak , u tnggu kay , i pass the phone to her kay ? " i went to Sya ,
" eh , kaw free ? gi layan dier . " so they talk , for about a minute and Sya gave back the phone
to me , and he said " asal u kasi handphone pat Sya ? " **SIGH** i kept quiet , blablabla ..

( I'll continue later , i've to go down , emergency ! hahah , lepak w them again . bye ! )

Monday, November 23, 2009 6:25 PM

Such A Close-call .

Just got home from lepaking with Sya and adek at blk 5 here . After while lepaking , or
you could say slacking , my dad called me . I though it was a text message so i
press the centre button , and ooops 'i terangkat his cal l' . I quickly rejected the call .
He called me again , and i didn't answer for like 6 times , i rushed home , and use the house
phone to call him . Phew ! He will be home soon , he told me to siapsiap because he'll
be fetching me to Sembawang to visit my nyayi . CLOSECALL , seriously man , i could
get killed with by the stupid phone . Okay , no link xio .

From this ,

to this ,

Okay , i got to go , rush off to meet Sya again , fast game yo ! bye !

2:29 PM

Girls Go Wild at Justin Bieber Mall Event; 5 Injured, 1 Arrested .

New York police shut down a mall appearance by teen pop singer
Justin Bieber after thousands of young girls showed up and got a little too wild. Nassau County police say girls and adults in the crowd of nearly 3,000 started pushing and shoving as they waited for the 15-year-old sensation to arrive Friday at the Roosevelt Field Mall in Garden City.

But Bieber never made it into the building. He told WBLI radio that police turned him away and even "threatened to arrest my mom and I."

Five people were taken to hospitals with minor injuries and police arrested a vice president from Bieber's record label, Island Def Jam Records. They say he wasn't cooperating with attempts to disperse the crowd.

Some fans had camped out overnight for the event. Many had cameras with them ... here's one particularly polished fan video:

1:28 AM

Running , screaming , rolling .

HELLO (: I've been happy here even though i'm only w this laptop . I'm downloading
songs now , i'll update my playlist soon after i've finished downloading th downloading aites .

I miss my Dumbdumb , haven't been contacting him , i don't know why i simply felt uneasy
for me to get my phone and just text him . Recently , i commented him a big HELLO to
him on Tagged , he was online by the way , as in on Tagged . I waited and waited -.- he didn't
reply back to me .

Damn i miss school so much . Haven't bought school books yet . I don't have the booklist
anyway , why ? because i didn't attend the last day of school , hahaha . Eversince holiday striked ,
i hadn't been going out w my friends , gotta stay home stucked up w all of th stupid craps
of nagging from my mum and stuff . Man ! when will she even ignore my ass off man .. She's
tearing me off the shit man , and i'm still doing the 'man' thing man .. Shitos , whatever ..

Never thought i would keep in touch with this dog again till this day . Logged in to Tagged ,
checked my messages , and there he is .. I though he has moved on or something , but yet
he's still asking me to have it w him again . He even gave me his new number , c'mon man ,
i ain't his toy made up of plastic man , i'm made up of blood , skin and bones .

I hate it when my ears just got pissed off by this spoiled earpiece , get it ? i'm lazy to repair ,
this crappy earpiece , you gotta cut , glue it and tape it back . I wanna buy a new pair :D

Saturday, November 21, 2009 11:34 AM

Hey hey (: i'm all brightly awake here ! hahah , didn't had a wink of sleep
again :D camwhored with my sister early in the 3am . After that , bluetooth the
photos to my laptop , at about six in the morning , woke my parents up , eyes
still on the screen on the laptop . After parents and brother got out of the house ,
my sister do the tuning of music ! after some of blablabla , suddenly i screamed
like as if i'm dying on that second kind of thing , nah , i screamed cos i needa
pee . hahahah ! i was like *screammmmmm* *smile* & i laughed , " i wanna
peeeeeee !" HAHAHA . Okay , i'm super boredddd :B heeh , i miss my boyf .
damn ! i never get tired of saying these kinds of stuff :D

And oh am gee , i'm addicted to watching Ben 10 mannnnn . HAH , its super
addictive to me , i think ? speaker of 'addictive' , i hadn't been doing any
studies lately during the holidays , not even a bit . I'm always up with the laptop
till morning man , and i just can't stop saying the 'man' maannn ! xD
okay , i'm krazy dude (: at least i didn't use the 'man' thing for the 'dude' right ?
LOL , okay , what the hell is my point here ?!
Oh yea , my point here is i'm just updating (:
Okay , and i wanna continue watching BEN 10 .

Friday, November 20, 2009 3:05 AM

That Singapore .

Not bad for a Singaporean , i didn't know they would get the shit up on YouTube man .
Keep it up guys , you can do much better there . Loving the editing though (: && I'm
not admiring the ones who teckto like they're in 'no mood' kind of thing -.- might as well
don't teckto . Damn ! Singapore rocks my shit . Hahaha .

Anyway , here here . My baby boy got his prepaid back on ! i know , right ? LOL , and
I'm so looking forward to that stupid asshole New Moon :B Justin Bieber is hot . Okay ,
random . Now that Ayu's prepaid is available , we texted like , for a few minutes
and we're done . OKAY , i seriously don't like to end messages shortly .
Like those kinds of 'okay' , 'hahaha' , 'eaten?' ,'i don't know' , 'k' , and all of those !
I simply don't like it , it's like wasting money kind of thing , might as well don't msg -.-
BOREDOM . boredom . Boredom . BoReDoM . get it ? bored :D
Bye , i'm going off to Facebook's games again , till five , i'm off to sleep .
Nights to all .

Thursday, November 19, 2009 5:35 AM

the post for november nineteen (:

Phew ! Stupid codes , i've just finished doing my blog skin . There
was some problem of which the posts was all on the left on the window ,
i was like OH MY GOD . Then , i re-do it again and again , step by step ,
and at last i got it . It kinda looked like Mira's old one , but , i'm gonna change some
colours later on . I'm sleepy man . Hahaha ! Tired tired , and STUPID ALARM
CLOCKS are ringing like motha-focks . I've updated my songs too (: it took me for
four hours man ! well , at the same time i was watching this horror movie on tv , hahaha .
SUPER SCARRYY , really . 2012 rocks , i watched it like twice already . Hahahah !
if you didn't know . Yea , i miss school . Uh , no no no no , let me rephrase that part ,
i miss my old life ! jyeah man . I miss my boyf ): and my dumbdumb , and dumbdumb is
not my boyf -.- i repeat that , he is not my boyf , he's my dumbdumb :D

Okay , got to wake my parents up now .
Gooodmorning to you and goodnight to me !
Love love , hugs and slaps (:

12:40 AM

Stupid emo guys . HAHAH ! But , they're hot ! i love emo guys :D but no no to emo gays . i hate GAYS . i repeat , I HATE EMO GAYS .

Wednesday, November 18, 2009 5:06 AM

Good Morning Singapore .

BOO ! come on , pretend to be shocked of it . Hahaha , i've finished editing Don's blog :D Kind of funny , cos he doesnt really understand the scripts of the blog code . I was laughing my way while asking him for the music code thing , :D anyway , got to know him from Tagged , not long ago .

Woke up at 10pm yesterday , continued resting till my parents got home . While resting , i kept on thinking about Ayu ): Baby ! i miss you . His prepaid finish already . So , can't contact him and gotta wait till he topup . Had dinner after that , and played game on phone . Then , got bored , i got myself on the laptop ! :B Now , i'm gonna sleep . I'll update songs tomorrow , i mean later (:

Argh ! god damn it . I'm waking up my parents now , i feel like calling in the Tsunami to come and drag them to the bathroom now . Hhahah :D Okay okay , i'm gonna shut down now . Loves loves .

Tuesday, November 17, 2009 9:57 AM

Hey , i'm still awake since yesterday -.- i got carried away by facebook's games . hahah :D can't belive it . sigh . Bobo asked me to slack with him , and i kept rejecting , i just don't have the mood to slack , he called me and kept on asking to slack outside my house here , but naah . I'm too lazy to step out of this house .DAMN , my stupid mother wants her phone back . shyt to her , i wish i never had a mother like her , who cares about her god-damned phone anyway ? it's so cheap , i could get $70 for a second hand , can't even use the camera cos its lense got scratches , videos can't even be played only audios . I hate her -.-

Who cares about my mother anyway ?.. I'm me , when i'm a mother , i know how to deal it , because having a sister is like having your own :D really , well my mum always wants me to take care of her during holidays -.- Okay , whatever it is , i'm going to sleep . Oh ya , above is a video of my sister making her so called ' music video ' . Hhahah , kinda funny , watch (:

Monday, November 16, 2009 12:35 AM

Ahoy . Felt like running away from home . Hahah , but alone ? there won't be fun if i were to run alone , so might as well lock myself up at home , right ? Anyways , i'm trying not to be sad , haven't talked to anyone one whole day |: damn it . Didn't even attend the jemputan , my dad arh . Sigh* i miss school ): Staying at home stucked up with parents SUCK . I prefer to be alone man .. I miss Ayu , Alin , Syafiqah , Ellysha , Razia , Rhonda , Adam , Jamil , Musa -.- , Elfy , Ridwan , Hafiz , Kit Yee , Jasmine , Heidi , Meredith , Jacqueline , John , Edwin , Joshua , Jodi , Markham , Jolyn , && many more lahs ! i miss school , i miss runaway .

I wanna dance my head off , i wanna scream , i wanna beat someone up till i'm satisfied , i want to be happy ): Damn it . Anyways , i'm done here . Nights ayy .

Sunday, November 15, 2009 3:55 AM

Cry Little Heart .

The only thing i could hear was the scream of cries in my heart . " I give up , she won't change . I dont care already . Maybe i'm sending her back to her mum ." That was the only thing i heard . My step-mum , my dad & i waited for our time to get in the theatre for 2012 . I was hearing muxic , had the earpiece stuffed up in my ears , i paused .. and heard my dad's talking , he thought i was still playing the muxic .

Mama monster :
Nanti kao eh jage!

Mama monster :
Bru 14 dah pandai beleseh..

Mama monster :
Engkao engat cooL.. Kao becinte dgn 'SYAITAN'

Mama monster :
Kao di alaM FANTASY..U BETA wake Up!

Mama monster :
Pandai tipu2 aku jumpe alin,alin. Pandai pkai name org,
nk mengakal aku.

Mama monster :
Beh lovebite sape bikin?alin eh.

Mama monster :
Name org laen?oh kao beler name aku kao
conteng muke aku???pulak kao tk sadar..
bijak pale hotak engkao.

Mama monster :
Beh,kao beleseh dgn jantan etu aku nak kene
DIAM jugak ker.?

Mama monster :
Ank derhake!

Mama monster :
Si Ber0k tu nk jahanamkan engkao,kao
jgn tepengaroh dgn jantan tak baik cam dier etu.
Dier binatang!

-- There's more , i dont wanna go on .. i read it again and again , i cried . I'm always having these kinds of msgs from my one and only MAMA MONSTER . She make me hate her more & more . Ayu didnt know how much it hurts me to be reading these kinds of msgs every week . Told Ayu to imaginate himself into me , i forward all of the msgs . I shouldnt have sent it to him . It hurts him too , he is my happiness and you're killing it ?! My mum doesnt even know me anymore and so do my dad !! I've been thinking of running away again , nobody even love me . My dad once told me that friends are not important , he asked me to choose between education and friends . i was like , of cos he was expecting 'education' to be its answer . I miss Ayu more than ever now , kept on thinking about him since morning . Anw , i'm kinda tired . I wanna sleap . Nights && goodmorning .

Saturday, November 14, 2009 3:17 PM

Teckto Rawks .

I'm kind of addicted to this god-damn video . hahaha :D really ! The way she teckto is super smooth xio . No joke . i watch it like almost everyday . Nice nice nice nice ! I'm learning to teckto -.- shyttie ass .

1:43 AM

I'm loving that feeling i once

had , but it seems to begone forever ,

not coming back to make me feel better .

I thought i'm gonna live a better life ,

but , now that the key i've surrendered ,

she left me the lost of my hope .

Baby i want and need you ,

eventhough i've had my heart drifted

to another guy , my heart will always

love you more than anyone else .

I wanna study hard so that i can find a

stable job for myself in case you can't

find a work . I've moved on , and i need not

cry anymore like how i used to cry everyday

and night to feel the hurt from my love .

My mum doesn't believe that a bad person

can change and repent , but i believe you can .

Count your benefits rather then your burdens .

Every single bit you've done for me i

appreciate it eventhough it's nothing

big or expensive .

Got home after meeting Ayu , farid & Hanafi . Mum asked to go for the movies , i rushed downstairs to shop for the Straits Time to check out movies . 2012 was on 8.30pm & 9.50pm . My grandma , my mum , my uncle & i walked to Tiong . 8.30's seats are RIGHT infront , so we took the 9.50pm show , my dad wont be fetching me home then . We went to spend our time at kfc . Took pictures and ate . Went to the movies as per normal , end of show , went home .. 12.45am we reached home , she asked " Eh , what's wrong with your neck ?? " i was like , oh motha forker biatch , she saw the biteson my neck . Sat down , she lecture me till 4.50am . She read my messages and stuff then told me " i don't think you deserve the Dover key . " i was like , FUCK UH . I got angry , and pissed off , i get the key and throw it to her and sat at the living room . Mum told me " eh , come here , i haven't finish talking to you yet ." uh , what the hell . Super boring there , which is one of the reason why i don't wanna stay there . But she's right , Ayu isn't my husband for me to share this and that with him . My mum told my dad about it uh , she like , wants the whole globe of Earth to know -.-

Baby : (03:03pm)
Nvrm la bie , if you wanna stop contacting wif
me tat is ur ch0ice , i cant st0p u , it is 4
our own good .

Yana : (03:03pm)
i also don't know lah . But i think its
best if we don't contact and , you should
move on .

Baby : (03:08pm)
Move on ?

Yana : (03:09pm)
Yah , a better lady (:
who has the freedom to be with you and your
family will love . Move on , i heard guys are
good at it .

Baby : (03:12pm)
I onli have u in ma heart !

Yana : (03.12pm)
Then ask your friends for perempuans (girls) .

Baby : (03:16pm)
Tanak ! Ke u yg nk cari pengganti baru ?

Yana : (03:17pm)
I nak carik buat ape ? i maseh bdk , kerje i is
to blaja .

Baby : (03:19pm)
Fine . What u wan actually ?

Yana : (03:19pm)
I want you , but i can't have it . So , i can't do
anything , i want to stay dover , cos i can go
school early and i can study there . Now my mum
doesnt trust me , then everything gone uh .

Baby : (03:26pm)
Im sori , if this thing happen bcoz of me , im sori once
again , i juz want u to fulfill ur wish . I knw that im bad ,
bt dont u 4get me . I wish to b wit u forever , by my side .
Bt n0w ? Haish , myb i should understand people feelings ,
u nid to c0ncentrate on your studies .

Yana : (03:31pm)
I want you , walaupun i ade hati untk laki laen , i tetap
ade hati untk u , i pernah sygkan Wan , skrng mane ade .
Sayang sayang pun , yang paleng i sayang is you . I nak
blaja pun , its because i nak carik keje yg baek kalau u
tak dapat keje .. I've moved on and i need not cry anymore
like how i used to . Mak i tak percaye yg bdk jahat
walau mcm mane punye setan pun , can change and repent .
But i believe you can ..

Baby : (03:40pm)
Bie u believe me ? I'll try my best ! I will n0t jady bdk jahat !
I wil carik kerje , i want to b gud n0t bad ! U no nid to find
any werk bby , i wil find a werk startin tmr , n i'll werk 4ever ,
4ever i wont quit werking , i love u bby . I love u damn lots .
Any werk wil do at least im werking .

[ I was imagining him saying this script (above) in a cartoon . HHAHHHA ]

Blablabla , and my mum sent me this ..

Mama : (06.33pm)
Eh , kao dgr baik2 eh.
jgn engkao engat by showing
of ur so cal 'LOVEBITE'...
kao bangge tapi kao silap org
tertawekan kao lagi ade. Si jantan
ini nak kasi engkaW malu, pahamm..

- i didnt reply -

Mama : (06:56pm)
L0ve is blind.

- still i didnt reply -

Mama : (08:40pm)
Aku mengingatkan jangan kao
influence by his werds .

- again , and still i didnt reply -

The four lovebites arent anything actually . Farid and Ayu was playing a game , both roll the dice one at a time and who gets lesser , will have to do a forfeit . Here's Ayu's forfeit .. i think , well yea ..

1st , farid told him to kiss me infront of him .
2nd , sl me for 5 secs infront of him .
3rd , sl me for 10 secs infront of him .
4th , lovebite me on my left neck .
5th , lovebite me on my right neck .
6th , lovebite me on my left neck .
7th , lovebite me on my right neck .
and thats the only thing i know , his forfeits .
hahahha :D

Friday, November 6, 2009 3:33 AM

Hey hey (= How are things ? hmm .. eversince holiday striked , my life's like ' Here comes the start of a miseryyyyy ' kinda thing . Been having a hard time to get out of this house during holidays y'know . I've been busy with .. uhhh .. uuuhhhh .. i've no idea what was i busy with , i'm kinda lazy for updating and stuff =D Anyways , here's another quick update .

Adam came back from Port. already (: i know you know he dont know or maybe he does , HAHAHAHA ! okay , that's super lame Maryana , anw .. yea , he came back , like yesterday . I was screaming my head out when i read Musa's message saying Adam will be in spore the next day , which was the day before yesterday . Yes .

Luck for money just isnt by my side -.- no moneyyyyy ): sad case ayy . I've been going back to Bukit Merah alot of times till my ez-link left with like $2/+ . Uh , damn it .

This Sunday , i'm supposed to attend my religious class thingy ): no friend , well i do .. but , i dont know uh . Super another embarrassing day -.-" with my slenger baju kind of thing , i know nothing seyhs .

Anyways , i think i'm done heres , i'm otp with Apit , Sya , Mil . Goodmorning and bye (=