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Mariana☮
Let's just make this simple.
I'm having a relationship with 'She didn't just kissed, she claimed ownership. Took his mouth with urgency, as if her life depended on her kissing him.' You know how is it when you love someone? And the hard part, the bad part, the Jerry Springer Show part is that you never stop loving someone. There’s always a piece of them in your heart. Were you so afraid of losing something you love, that you refuse to love anything? Sometimes I'd be glad if only you'd fought for me.
She fell, she hurt, she felt. She lived. And for all the tumble of her experiences, she still had hope. Maybe this next time would do the trick. Or maybe not. But unless you stepped into the game, you would never know. When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability. To be alive is to be vulnerable.
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-Mariana
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Saturday, November 14, 2009 1:43 AM
I'm loving that feeling i once
had , but it seems to begone forever ,
not coming back to make me feel better .
I thought i'm gonna live a better life ,
but , now that the key i've surrendered ,
she left me the lost of my hope .
Baby i want and need you ,
eventhough i've had my heart drifted
to another guy , my heart will always
love you more than anyone else .
I wanna study hard so that i can find a
stable job for myself in case you can't
find a work . I've moved on , and i need not
cry anymore like how i used to cry everyday
and night to feel the hurt from my love .
My mum doesn't believe that a bad person
can change and repent , but i believe you can .
Count your benefits rather then your burdens .
Every single bit you've done for me i
appreciate it eventhough it's nothing
big or expensive .
had , but it seems to begone forever ,
not coming back to make me feel better .
I thought i'm gonna live a better life ,
but , now that the key i've surrendered ,
she left me the lost of my hope .
Baby i want and need you ,
eventhough i've had my heart drifted
to another guy , my heart will always
love you more than anyone else .
I wanna study hard so that i can find a
stable job for myself in case you can't
find a work . I've moved on , and i need not
cry anymore like how i used to cry everyday
and night to feel the hurt from my love .
My mum doesn't believe that a bad person
can change and repent , but i believe you can .
Count your benefits rather then your burdens .
Every single bit you've done for me i
appreciate it eventhough it's nothing
big or expensive .
Got home after meeting Ayu , farid & Hanafi . Mum asked to go for the movies , i rushed downstairs to shop for the Straits Time to check out movies . 2012 was on 8.30pm & 9.50pm . My grandma , my mum , my uncle & i walked to Tiong . 8.30's seats are RIGHT infront , so we took the 9.50pm show , my dad wont be fetching me home then . We went to spend our time at kfc . Took pictures and ate . Went to the movies as per normal , end of show , went home .. 12.45am we reached home , she asked " Eh , what's wrong with your neck ?? " i was like , oh motha forker biatch , she saw the biteson my neck . Sat down , she lecture me till 4.50am . She read my messages and stuff then told me " i don't think you deserve the Dover key . " i was like , FUCK UH . I got angry , and pissed off , i get the key and throw it to her and sat at the living room . Mum told me " eh , come here , i haven't finish talking to you yet ." uh , what the hell . Super boring there , which is one of the reason why i don't wanna stay there . But she's right , Ayu isn't my husband for me to share this and that with him . My mum told my dad about it uh , she like , wants the whole globe of Earth to know -.-
Baby : (03:03pm)
Nvrm la bie , if you wanna stop contacting wif
me tat is ur ch0ice , i cant st0p u , it is 4
our own good .
Yana : (03:03pm)
i also don't know lah . But i think its
best if we don't contact and , you should
move on .
Baby : (03:08pm)
Move on ?
Yana : (03:09pm)
Yah , a better lady (:
who has the freedom to be with you and your
family will love . Move on , i heard guys are
good at it .
Baby : (03:12pm)
I onli have u in ma heart !
Yana : (03.12pm)
Then ask your friends for perempuans (girls) .
Baby : (03:16pm)
Tanak ! Ke u yg nk cari pengganti baru ?
Yana : (03:17pm)
I nak carik buat ape ? i maseh bdk , kerje i is
to blaja .
Baby : (03:19pm)
Fine . What u wan actually ?
Yana : (03:19pm)
I want you , but i can't have it . So , i can't do
anything , i want to stay dover , cos i can go
school early and i can study there . Now my mum
doesnt trust me , then everything gone uh .
Baby : (03:26pm)
Im sori , if this thing happen bcoz of me , im sori once
again , i juz want u to fulfill ur wish . I knw that im bad ,
bt dont u 4get me . I wish to b wit u forever , by my side .
Bt n0w ? Haish , myb i should understand people feelings ,
u nid to c0ncentrate on your studies .
Yana : (03:31pm)
I want you , walaupun i ade hati untk laki laen , i tetap
ade hati untk u , i pernah sygkan Wan , skrng mane ade .
Sayang sayang pun , yang paleng i sayang is you . I nak
blaja pun , its because i nak carik keje yg baek kalau u
tak dapat keje .. I've moved on and i need not cry anymore
like how i used to . Mak i tak percaye yg bdk jahat
walau mcm mane punye setan pun , can change and repent .
But i believe you can ..
Baby : (03:40pm)
Bie u believe me ? I'll try my best ! I will n0t jady bdk jahat !
I wil carik kerje , i want to b gud n0t bad ! U no nid to find
any werk bby , i wil find a werk startin tmr , n i'll werk 4ever ,
4ever i wont quit werking , i love u bby . I love u damn lots .
Any werk wil do at least im werking .
[ I was imagining him saying this script (above) in a cartoon . HHAHHHA ]
Blablabla , and my mum sent me this ..
Mama : (06.33pm)
Eh , kao dgr baik2 eh.
jgn engkao engat by showing
of ur so cal 'LOVEBITE'...
kao bangge tapi kao silap org
tertawekan kao lagi ade. Si jantan
ini nak kasi engkaW malu, pahamm..
- i didnt reply -
Mama : (06:56pm)
L0ve is blind.
- still i didnt reply -
Mama : (08:40pm)
Aku mengingatkan jangan kao
influence by his werds .
- again , and still i didnt reply -
The four lovebites arent anything actually . Farid and Ayu was playing a game , both roll the dice one at a time and who gets lesser , will have to do a forfeit . Here's Ayu's forfeit .. i think , well yea ..
1st , farid told him to kiss me infront of him .
2nd , sl me for 5 secs infront of him .
3rd , sl me for 10 secs infront of him .
4th , lovebite me on my left neck .
5th , lovebite me on my right neck .
6th , lovebite me on my left neck .
7th , lovebite me on my right neck .
and thats the only thing i know , his forfeits .
hahahha :D