Sunday, November 29, 2009 6:12 AM
RANDOM .
I sat and think back , there's just so much to think about .
The last time I had my lungs laughing out loud was
when I was without my parents/family . Why must I always
cry my heart out so that I could have the peace back in my
mind . I remembered the whole time laughter was when
I got myself busy for the arts festival competition thing .
I really got myself busy practising the dance , stayed
back almost everyday till late 6 or 7 , or even absent myself
from school merely to accompany my grandmother for almost
a week or two . That time , my mum knew about the
relationship I had with my boyf too . I even showed her his
identity card . I can meet up with my own boyf for almost
everyday and I even postpone the days which my
dad gotta fetch me to Marsiling .
Those are my emo days man . I cry and slice my wrist ,
again and again . Now , I've gotten mysef more and more
stressed up by my own mum . She just make me suck
my own life , she's my worst nightmare now . I just hate her
all the way to the core . She just get on my nerves , always man .
She creeps me out , she always wanna battle with me .
She's just sooo down to Earth !
My chances of getting myself to Dover was
"--" this close not "-------------" , and
yet she made herself thinks I dont deserve that key .
I need space man , as i looked through my friend's life ..
man , they should cherish every moment they had
with their family man . I wished I could be like them ,
get everything they ever wanted . I never got as much friends
as I do now , haha , I dont know , anyway , I got to go ,
I've updated and shall update again soon (:
Goodmorning Singapore !