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Mariana☮

17, Female ,Singapore .

Let's just make this simple.
I'm having a relationship with ~~Aliff Bin Raffi~~ Faizal Bin Omar

'She didn't just kissed, she claimed ownership. Took his mouth with urgency,
as if her life depended on her kissing him.' You know how is it when you love
someone? And the hard part, the bad part, the Jerry Springer Show part is
that you never stop loving someone. There’s always a piece of them in your heart.
Were you so afraid of losing something you love, that you refuse to love anything?
Sometimes I'd be glad if only you'd fought for me.

She fell, she hurt, she felt. She lived. And for all the tumble of her experiences,
she still had hope. Maybe this next time would do the trick. Or maybe not. But
unless you stepped into the game, you would never know. When we were children,
we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable.
But to grow up is to accept vulnerability. To be alive is to be vulnerable.

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Know that the pain will pass and when it passes ,
you will become stronger , happier , more sensitive and aware .

-Mariana

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Sunday, December 27, 2009 6:14 AM

Here I Go Again .

The centre photo , it's my cousin and me , we were 3 years old .
Hahah , come to think of it , I was super cute back then . Was I ?
JYEAH . hahah ! How I wished I could get back to those kiddy days
and never grow up . Missing those days when I could just
get mad and cry whenever I wanted something I love so much .

I browsed through the pictures , I mean .. I all of a sudden
had this feeling of I've got no more friends already . Like , just
me , solo . Y'know ? It's like , yah . They went out together and
I'm without them . I wanted to go out together , but WELL ,
something or someone didn't want me to tag along .

I've been going out with my boyfriend often lately .
Without my friends , hahaha . I felt weird somehow , when
My boyfriend and I and company went to Vivo .
Hahaha , it was , yea , fun . But , I didn't really got close
to them , hahah ! LOL , I was kinda yea , shy -.-
We're proudly 11 months and two days now and I love
him like I've known him just yesterday , scared to let go
and stuff . I really don't think I do need friends ,
I don't think I know them anymore now .

Forget about friendslife of mine .
Few days back , I stayed a night at Dover (= it was awesome !
well , not really -.- the awesome part was that I won't be living with
my mum and dad already ! that's all . Apart from that ,
there were no pillows for me to rest my head on , unless I had my
boyfriend with me , HAHA . sigh .. I miss school ..

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle ,
Life is a maze and love is a riddle ,
I dont know where to go , cant do it alone ,
I've tried ~

LOL , I was being lame , anyway , to Anonymous ;
Go Get A Life . LOL . Do Something Better Lah .
Stop Bytching Around Here or If You're A Guy ,
Stop Fucking Around Here XD HAHA . So What If You
Know Who The Hell I Am , I'm Not Gonna Die When I
Know You Know . HAHA . WHAT THE FUCK ,
wish you no bright in your future mannnnnn ,
no no no , let's not say future , LIFE , Starting Now !
Right This Second , Now Now Now Now Now , i just
love my boyfriend , I really never get tired of saying and
typing it . HAHAHAHA , BABY , I LOVE YOU ! :D

Friday, December 18, 2009 1:56 AM

loveSICK electric

Hey-hoe ~ Cookie yana monster is here !
I'm sick , having fever . I've got a tissue stucked
up into my nose now -.- looking all gloomyyy .
LOL . I'm so tired that I could barely walk .
Plus , I think I'm outta here now . Super Cold .

Yo sista , maybe besok then nana edit for you
your blog uh . Penat uhk . I wanna rest |: byebye .

P.S : Cookie Yana Moster love Cookie Shari Munchter : D
bieee ~ gue cinta banget sama lorh .

Thursday, December 17, 2009 5:00 AM

Awkwardly felt .

A great Hello to my fellow lembu-lembu and kerbau-kerbau .
Today , I meant , yesterday , went to Sembawang & saw that stupid flasher
again , and ignored him , i would be stupid to go and layan the mama guy .
Then , arrived at the door , I ate and after awhile there , I told her
I should get going b'cos it looks like it's about to rain . She gave me
10 bucks as per normal , while my uncle gave me 20 bucks , I suddenly
felt , omg ! lucky day .. then , I walk my way to the Sembawang MRT
and I got myself drenched wet ! LOL . Then , I hurried my way , and then
reached Tiong MRT , siul uh , I need to walk again -.- so I walked ,
then , met up with Ayu (: hug him ! and well , his friend was around too :D
I was with him , or them , for like at about 2 ? or an hour .. I'm not so sure .

At about 5.45 ? I went home , as in BukitMerah home .. Then ,
*tweetybird smile!* blablabla , gave my mum her phone back , and I got my
DOVER KEY ! oh my god , could my day get any luckier ? I was like
dropdead wanna scream my head out ! :D blablabla , as per usual , my dad fetch
me home at night .

At about 1 or 2 in the morning , like a few hours back from now .. My sister
and I went downstairs to the carpark to find her mp3 and get my
handphone cloth cover thingy . Then I saw this cat ! super cute :B I played
with it awhile , then I carried him , super light ! :D unlike like Carpet -.-
so fat , still wanna play catching with me HAHA ~ Then , halfway the cat followed
us to the lift of void deck . Aww , cute right ? I know ! Hahah .

Miss my kawan-kawans so much mann ! Speaking of my 'mann' thing .
HAHAHA ! I say it to my boyf a few times , I told him ''Whatever mann''
he was like , ''Whatever girl'' HAHA . then , we kept on saying the stupid LOL
thing . HAHAHA , lol . okay . HAHAHA , lmao -.- i miss my boyf .

I'm supposed to be doing my sister's blog now , hahah ! updating and editting
photos , busybusybusy mann . LOL . okay -.- I got to go now . chalobeteh ~ HAHA .

Wednesday, December 16, 2009 1:15 AM

Try'na Update (:

Heyhey (= Guess what .. Tomorrow I'm going to Bukit Merah .
LOL , okay I know . I'm just stepping there to give back my mum
her 'precious' phone back of which she thought I don't deserve to
be borrowing it from her . Plus , I'm gonna meet my baby (:
Yupyup , but before that I'm going to Sembawang first , get
my nyayi some food and clean up the garbage . HAHA . So , yea .

I miss you Rhonda Drama-mama and Razia Hannah :B
rindu you both manymany , MADHOOD always :D hahah .
when wanna go out ? I see you all maju without me seyh .
LOL , LMAO , ROFLMAO . okay .

I MISS MY BOYF . see , i just never get tired of it (:
Okay , byebye Kerbau-kaerbau dan Lembu-lembu .

Monday, December 14, 2009 1:58 AM

I'mBackFromLangkawi .

Dear Kerbau-kerbau dan Lembu-lembu ,
I've just reached home from Langkawi !
Went to Langkawi for the past three or four days .. Drove from Singapore
to Kedah and we took a ferry to langkawi . So , we left our car at Kedah
and rented a car at Langkawi . THE CAR SUPER SUCK MAN . The car
so old . eee , very dirty sumore . hahah ! Then , drove to Langkawi Lagoon
Resort . It was a superfreakinglong journey mann .

It was cool mannn . We went Island Hopping .
A mountain/bigrock has a shape of a pregnant lady .
Its so cool . My dad took a few picture of it . I kinda lazy
to upload another so , jyea .. Got home at about afternoon ,
then went to cousin's place for something .. then at
about 8pm plus ? we got home , then I watched tv ..
checked in my tagged and ADAM at last replied my
comment ! :D he said he was busy this and that (=
and now , i wanna text with my babyboy and i'll be
off to sleep sooner or later ! HAHAH .
Bye my dear kerbaus and lembus ! XD

Tuesday, December 8, 2009 7:45 PM

yanacan'tsing

SUCK , stupid Youtube doesn't allow mixpod to select
those videos without showing the video . Like get it ?
Mostly , we use them for like mp3 and stuff , but who
cares ? I don't :D KICK ME THRU THA PHONE .

Anyway , after this update I'll be packing my stuff ) :
I'm running away from home .. Not xD Hahahah !
I'm off to Langkawi later morning . Hahaha , why would
I run away again man ? I don't want my laptop to get
confiscated againnnnnnn . Hahahah .
Yay me ! I'll be bringing back loardies of portos .
-.- *loads of photos* if you just don't understand .
Hahaha !

Among all of my recordings , I prefer these three ,
they might be out of beat , so .. SORRY :D
Though I know I can't sing , I had loads of fun
screaming out and figuring out the lyrics :D

YanaCan'tSing - Irreplaceable (remix)

YanaCan'tSing - I Kissed A Girl

YanaCan'tSing - When You Look Me In The Eyes

I wanna get a remake when I get back to Singapore ,
which is a few days later . Come on , look on the brighter
side if you're alone at home , you could do anything mannn .
HAHA ! Okay , I'm off now (=

Monday, December 7, 2009 7:27 PM

Hey (: I'll update soon . I wanna watch Teen Cribs first jyea .
Finished some recordings of mine since afternoon ..
Anyway , I'll post later (=

4:28 AM

New Moon .

I've watched New Moon yesterday ,
with my mum & dad at Causeway
Point at about 9.45pm . Kind of nice
though . Edward Cullen (Robert
Thomas Pattinson ) , is so out of
my mind . Not a fan of him as much
as before . Hahaha ! I'm in
looooove with WEREWOLVES ! :D

Jacob Black ( Taylor Daniel Lautner ) , is super hot !

Nyahahah xD hotter after the haircut thingy -.- like
duhh . "Your eyes are beautiful" HAHA , it creeps me
out after hearing Isabella Swan ( Kristen Jaymes Stewart )
saying it to Jacob in the movie :D omg ! werewolves
are cute mannnn . *sniffsniff* EEEWW , somebody
just farted in the house Dx blueekkkk , such a vomitsss
mann . Hahaha , stinkbomb .

Anyway , I can use my phone to text after my dad got home
from work , because I'm having free messages :D but no
callings except for missed and in-coming calls . DAMN . I'm
still wishing for Dover man , but I heard my boyf will be
moving out of Bukit Merah ) : *sobsob* can't see him each
time I got home from school then . Got to go , waking parents
up time ! AND I HATE THE ALARM CLOCK SOUND .
Noisy mannnnnnn .

And anyway , I MISS MY BOYF . I never get tired saying it
mann , plus the 'mann' thing mann . hahah ! *if yr pp8
low , top up soon bieeee. me gonna die ! :D hahahah.*

Friday, December 4, 2009 2:25 AM

At last I hugged him !

Went to CausewayPoint with my sister , met up with my sister's
boyf . We arrived like 2 plus in the afternoon , jyah . I waited
and waited , I was so focused on people going up and down the
elevator and walking around , damn ! It got me dizzy mannn .
Hahahaha ! At about like , 4 plus he came . Who ?

Alah , have lah , why must I tell
you (: My boyf ! :D miss him seyh ,
like haven't see him for like one or
two or three months . Yay me !
I get my HUGHUG , he came with
Farid anyways . Jyah .
Well , after they came I felt like no
mood kinda thing .. I dont know ,

like who not pissed off kan .. people datang lambat , then yah .. So at Macs , tried to entertain
them , then , my sis and her boyf and me gonna eat , then he and Farid like , sat at different
table .___. After my sister finished eating , she headed off with her boyf to somewhere I dont
know where , then we went separate ways from there luhs . So I sat with Farid and my boyf
there .. Then , they like dowant to eat , of cos they want -.- then I like keep asking them wanna
eat anot again and again and again UNTIL they wanna eat . Then my mission failed ! I actually
wasnt hungry , hahaha , so i didnt finish my burger , so I gave them and my sister left a burger ,
wasnt eaten yet . So , they shared :D Then we headed to Civic library .

Then , we spent our time in the library , hahaha , I was actually wanting the air-con . I almost
fell asleep mannn . Then , I searched books on cats , super cute uh ! veryveryvery cute !
Hahahah , my boyf is kinda good in history mann , I dont even bother about Singapore's
stories when he told me about the war thing , was it the war thingy ? i think so , i was like :O
Hahah ! :D

After that we headed to CausewayPoint again and had a walk around .. Hahaha , then we
watched concert y'know , jealous anot ? hahah ! SESAMESTREET . Elmo have this and that also
have but biggy birdy no have -.- stupid big bird . Hahaha ! Farid record video of the thing ..
-.- DIAO . I miss my bby's hug ! I shouldve hugged longer mannnn . Then , met up with my
sister and her boyf at 7eleven . Then , slacked near the mrt awhile , then Abg Halif went home .
jyeap . Then , my sister dragged me to the bazaar . I was kinda shocked to see my brother
working there , the Phantom guy yah . Then i was finding for my boyf and farid y'know , I
cannot see b'cos my glasses was with Farid . Then ,we slacked awhile .. then we went off to
woodlands interchange ) : *sobsob* felt like dragging him home and thon outside my house
with me ! then i can hug him more and i wont have to see my mother's face again ! :D

Then , yeap ! Baby,imissyoumannn !
I hate it to text you every start of the morning , like after my parents got
to sleep and I have to secretly get my dad's phone and text you , and before
my parents wakes up for work , we've to end there and continue the next
morning . I want my simcard back mannn D ' :

- Alif ! thanks if you would like to buy for me a new number ,
but its okay (= I'll try to save up money . Love ya Bro .

Wednesday, December 2, 2009 5:11 AM

Discovered History .

The 'LAMEST' post I'll ever post , I think . I found me long lost 'DIARY' and found it
not long ago . The book so big , nicenice got alot space , I only write on one page .
My so called 'secretdiary' . Hahahah , what a joke ! Here's what I wrote on the pathetic
book ;

My diary .....

You know Bloom I feel like I want to die.Then there is no more problem like

last time.It is all Rhonda's fault and my fault I should not friend Rhonda but

I want to,I want to friend Rhonda and Syafiqa.Syafiqa don't want to friend

Rhonda,It's easy I just don't friend them and easy just die.

ghost Mariana

2004