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Mariana☮
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I'm having a relationship with 'She didn't just kissed, she claimed ownership. Took his mouth with urgency, as if her life depended on her kissing him.' You know how is it when you love someone? And the hard part, the bad part, the Jerry Springer Show part is that you never stop loving someone. There’s always a piece of them in your heart. Were you so afraid of losing something you love, that you refuse to love anything? Sometimes I'd be glad if only you'd fought for me.
She fell, she hurt, she felt. She lived. And for all the tumble of her experiences, she still had hope. Maybe this next time would do the trick. Or maybe not. But unless you stepped into the game, you would never know. When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability. To be alive is to be vulnerable.
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Friday, February 19, 2010 8:04 AM
YELLOW .
My life (= great . Went to the beachs on the 14 February ; with my mum , dad , my aunt , uncle and my three cousins . I was sick , so I slept till night , it was super cooling as if a BIG BIG GIGANTIC fan was infront of me . Lol ! :D15feb ,
Hey (= guess what ? Haha ! My mickey got me a rose ! Isnt it lovely sweety kind of thing ? hahaha , you should've seen the look on his face . Hahahaha ! So cute , he didn't know how to give me the rose . It was awkward though , you know ; I dont really feel comfortable taking things from people .. Hahaha .. Went home , to bukit merah .. My mum asked if it was from me dad whom gave it to me , i told her no and it was from a friend of mine . From there i knew whom she was having in mind . Hahahah !
16feb ,
I'm texting with my boyfriend now .. He sounded weird like for the past few hours , it was awkward . He kept on saying he's stupid and stuff like that .. I don't understand .. Now waiting for his repl , sighh ..
He replied , he had a rough time with his family and friends , I told him to get some sleep . He needs to rest his mind . Tomorrow will be our new day , i go to school while he goes to work .
19feb ,
Today is Friday ! I'm in school here . hahaha , currently listening to Wali Band - Baikbaik Sayang . Yesterday after school went to Dover ; my uncle's house , kana lecture .. both of them uh , my mum and uncle .. say I'm hanging around with some stupid guy , whom doesn't respect people , useless , animal and whatever bullshyt . I didn't want to make things worst , i took out my mp3 and listened to songs and just nod my head , not hearing a thing they said to me . A few advices they gave me , i didn't know which to side .
I was confused and my love for my boyf just like faded for a moment , I kept on telling myself to be patient and everything will go smoothly with my ways of happiness . we're together for almost one year and 2 months on this 25 , six more days , one year two months . I was confused yesterday that I told my boyf to forget about meeting , we were supposed to meet yesterday , at a shop , just awhile .. but it turned out me turning it down . Texted him yesterday ; not to meet . He kept on asking why why why and why . I told him lah , i kana lecture . then he said he wont do things like talk behind my back with his family and is not aftering my money and something like that . *sigh* Then , he told me to tell him what to do , and he'll do , i told him to leave me alone for 7 days . He said okay .
Just now , had assembly at parade square , i fell asleep , i dreamt somehow my boyf had an email , DUH he have , but he doesnt online .___. then back to my dream , he came online and this msn pop up this conversation and my boyf said what , uh .. "why don't we break , since you want me to leave you alone .." after i somehow read that , i striaght away woke up sia .. then i tried get back to sleep because the stupid i-share thing was still on and havent finish , i couldnt get myself to sleep mannn . I miss my boyf ) = well , i gotta try to hang on to it , i miss him so much , I wonder if he's already awake for work now .. now is like 8.29am .. hahaha :D
Having RedCross later after school till 5.30pm ? will be having footdrills and stuff , at about 3 or 4 plus I will be going to get to the dance thingy . wokey , got to go .. updated sooner or later :D
yank coba kau jujur padaku
yank foto siapa di dompetmu
yank kok kamu diam membisu sayang
jawab atau aku pergi sayangaku tak mau bicara
sebelum kau cerita semua
apa maumu, siapa dirinya
tak betah bila ada yang lain
jangan hubungi ku lagi
ini bisa jadi yang terakhir
aku ngerti kamu, kau tak ngerti aku
sekarang atau tak selamanya ..