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I don't live to please you and you don't have to make it to this part where I couldn't be bothered about you. I fought with you on one particular day, and my new day has started, my new day doesn't have to include you in it.

I'm saying this once and for all.

So what do you want from me, from us that you are now hating so much. If you want me to say sorry to you although I have no idea what I did wrong, you tell me. You're saying I'm childish? YES I AM, and so what? I'm still young, why be mature.. You don't have to be matured at all times, if you do, you'll go crazy. If you don't know what is the meaning of matured, you should go and Google it. You don't have to talk behind MY back now. That proves that you are no different from me or the others.

You want me say right in your face? and make you dishearten and cry and get angry and do violent stuff, which you think that is matured? I DO NOT THINK SO. Why I say all this things here? Cos whenever I talk face to face with you or anyone else, I DO NOT THINK BEFORE I SPEAK. You know I do not mean bad. Honesty and truth is what others could not really accept, unless it is a good news to them. I didn't rumour around about your family or boyfriend or even your friends.. What is the point of telling them bad things about you. Even now, when I am saying you the truth about you, you couldn't accept it and yet get much angrier. Being matured and an adult is never easy. You should think of what others' feel, how others look at you, how they think, how they think about your heart, brain, attitude, mind and self.

You will never find the reason of why you are angry now, all you want to do is delete people, running away of what they themselves think about you. You want me to say sorry? Can, I know I should say sorry because I talk behind your back, you should know why.. Even you yourself talk behind others' back, what goes around comes around. I've taught you things you do not know, I've seen you crying your heart out when you are out of love, I've seen you getting mad over something small, I've seen you smile, I've seen you laugh, even though I dislike you. I'm saying all these is not because I wanna be friends with you again. Just telling you to know more of what I think life is. You should look deeper and think what is the root of every problem, and then you can take action. Don't be so unreasonable.

The most commonest part of every girl, is being a bitch by gossiping, even I gossip, I know.. that is because I know where I am standing and I know myself. Everybody talks about me, some hates me too because I call them sluts, because I do not know them well. Why I call them sluts? Because THEY are either being unreasonable or I judge them by their outside. Life, love, friendship or whatever relationship you could possibly think is never a subject which you could understand. Seriously, it's not like math where you have the answer sheet and you know you get it right or wrong. It's the problems in your life that is the math of everything, learn from your mistakes. By deleting us and trying to mean 'I don't want to befriend you, because you talk bad about me.' kind of thing, is stupid.

So what if I post all of those nasty things about you? You said that's the reason why you deleted us from Facebook, but yet.. you still cared to read something about yourself, and that is another stupid thing. Why make things so confusing when you could just deal with it when we meet? rather than being so called sarcastic in messages? -.- I couldn't care less about you, really. I've got other friends, why must I be so screwed up just because of you one person. You are bothering my mind the whole day, because you said things which you should know I do not like. Did I make a big fuss out of it? You should know yes I did, I told Brian I said I couldn't take it about you, and felt like giving you one tight slap. All he said was ok. Cos he can't be bothered about me too.

..and truly, even other people knows you with your foundation too white on your skin colour. I've told you too many times your skin tone is perfect and you do not need any foundation anymore, but you simply can't listen.

Brian Joetasia; A single word can hurt someone"s feelings.
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oMariana Joeytasia - Sorry )'= I'm sorry if I hurt you with my words. I'm sorry if I am being harsh on you. I am sorry if I took you away from your friends. I am sorry if every single thing I do or say to you actually had a deadly pinch to your heart. I am sorry if I am being uncaring towards you Brian. I am really sorry if I've never said sorry to every mistake that I've made to you. I am sorry if I were to just ignore you and walk off without saying a thing or look back at you. But I've never hated you, I've never thought of making you cry, not even once.. Every time I saw you shedding a single tear, I'll be wiping it off for you and try to make things better. Maybe I didn't understand you much. No matter how much you think that I am having mood swing or pissed off, you know deep down, I'm still loving you more than anyone I've liked or loved. All those guys you thought I had a crush on so much, was all a lie. You know I've never wanted to hurt you. I tried to change, you changed me to be a better person. You are my world, I swear. I am quiet because I thought I should know when to talk and when to listen and feel. I miss your hugs. You're amazing, no matter how cheapskate you are, no matter how silly, how dumb. You are stupid, hah, but I am teaching you in every way I can.. I made you cry, I wiped your tears away, you made me cry, you made me laugh, you made me sad, you always make me happy, you made me frown, you made me smile. I've never regretted being with you, you're the guy that I wanted to stare at always. I've moved on.. Happy 5 months again, thanks for the gift though, don't act cute by using envelope to actually write a note. Hah :'D I love you.
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I cried while I was typing and listening to Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are. I don't know if I am being nice or harsh |: sigh.. Maybe I was used to how my ex boyfriends treat me. I'm scared that he'll be the same just like the other guys. The other guys meaning, they say all those sweetly old things, build some trust in me towards him, and then when he knows that I trust him so much, he'll leave. I'm sick and tired of those guys, Malay typical guys. I don't know.. All I know now is to pray hard that my grades are high, revise and recap for DNT and MT paper tomorrow. When was the last time I've cried as heavy as this man. I got to go now.

Calling Brian David Tay in progress.....

Ok, bye! ^^

Had Science paper and ELC today. In the morning my class sat outside the exam room for morning assemble, everyone was like doing more of last minute revision on Science. It was awkward because I think my class was the only class who was actually revising, no offense, like seriously.

Time is running outttt, I need new handphone, I want Ipodt4! I don't wanna disappoint Mr Lee by not beating the guys, well.. he wanted me to. I'll try! Science, I hope I will pass, same to all of the other subjects. Stressing out 1 week in the whole of 10 months, and then I can enjoy every single shitt I want.

Suffer first, enjoy later.

I miss my boyfriend and I love him, he's mine. He got nice brownie eyes, and straight hair, and good heart ^^ He makes me smile everyday. Hehe. I will pass, I will pass, I will passsss. My boyfriend is the sweetest, in me.

I remembered when I thought my life was on the edge of a tall cliff, I wasn't moving on. I've learned from my mistakes and now I am much more careful. I know how my life is now.

What I want? I want to have good grades till my dad has got nothing to say about my report card. He knows I know what is wrong and right. You basically come to school to study and learn, you have no right to create fights with your teachers because it is good enough that they're sharing their knowledge to you. Why couldn't your parent's do it? Your parent's actually paid to a bunch of teachers to teach you knowledge and what is right and wrong. I don't understand why people care about their looks too much rather than studying and spending their time listening to the teachers and pass your examinations then get good grades, get a stable and good jobs and shoooo all foreigners! No offence, but they are taking over Singapore. That just happens when Singaporeans starts being choosy and lazy and then complain that more 'hardworking' and 'capable' workers takes over your place and it's hard to find a job. Tell me people, which job isn't tiring? All jobs are tiring, it just depends on yourself.

I believe that I can change and be different than what others think.

I got to go now, need more practice for Mathematics and get ready for tomorrow! Time to gain confidence baby. I can count on myself, I am independent, I am responsible and I can do it. There's nothing wrong with being kiasu, prevention is better than cure. Love you, Readers and Bloggers.

P/S; I love my boyfriend.

Yeah mann, I love that one.

Freed with a little of stress in me :D Examination is this Monday! I wanna pass, hoping I could get most A's or my dad is gonna yell it all out on me. Anyway, today went out with my baby boyyyy, teehee. Went to do Science homework in the library(: cool huh? I miss him still, although we're in the same school and see each other everyday in class and after school and at home on web-cam! I still miss him :D I love his shirt smell I do not know why -.-

I love this guy man, this Brian David Tay guy. He's epic! Should've brought camera, he was a gay for a moment. SUPERGAY. Haha! After we went to the library, we went to slack near my house and we talked about life stuff and what we used to do when we were kids and such. Haha, every moment was precious. Time passed so fast that it was 8 when we went home. I love him (:

If you ever see him, if you ever meet him,
If you ever get a chance to sit down and talk to him,
Let him know it's so cold, here without him,
And tell him I miss him,tell him I want him,
to come back, back to keep me warm,
Tell him I'm sorry, I'm really sorry,
Can you forgive me? Please forgive me,
and come back beside me, back to keep me warm.
I'll try to love you more.

I am being too sensitive. Most of every single word and action he said and did to perempuan yang lain really made me cemburu. I know I'm easily jealous-ed lah, but I can't help it. I'm still trying to overcome this stupid jealousy ok. Anyway, she's my kawan, sama class pulak tu. Alah, Sya.. kalau kau tak tawu pun, si muke penyet tu. Entah lah. I'm just overreacting towards something neutral and normal. Dah tu, tadi itu perempuan and my mataer balek same2. Menyampah betul ku melihat. Haha. I'm being weird and he won't like it, so I should just keep it to myself, right? YES :(

He's Mathematics isn't as bad as I'd thought it would be. I ain't being sarcastic, I'm saying this honestly. Oh, I've got a lot of incomplete homework y'know. Like, Mathematics worksheets, like 2-3 sets of it. Why I had so much? Well, it is basically because of the days that I didn't attend school. Haha, so yeah.. Sometimes I just don't get it, and I don't know why do I always don't get want I want to know, and why I always forget about things so shortly after, and my patience had been lowered too low. Whatever lah sey. I thought I won't get this feeling again, but emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo, why am I always being emo. I thought I've stepped out of that pathetic behavior yet fabulous style. Dear Mariana Daughter of Sarip Son of Samsuri or Mariana Binte Sarip Bin Samsuri, you will get over with this shit. Don't think too much about it and always remember jealousy is a horrible sickness.
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